With you I am home: My Guardian Angel

5:35 pm

11:00 am
Babe!
*phone ringing*
Answer the phone....
where the hell are you,
you were suppose to call me
hello
hello
you know what Fine whatever you betta not be with them thots at that party.
........
11:30
fine you know what fuck you

11:40
why aren't you answering

After a while I was so pissed off that my boyfriend hadnt texted me or called me like he said he would,

He was suppose to be going out with his friends last night and he never texted me that he was home...

Quite frankly I don't know whether to be pissed that he isn't texting me back because he might be

around some of those b***hes that was tryna get with him a few weeks ago when I wasn't there.

So I try to calm myself down by going on twitter and looking at the fine Black Men twitter page

and thats when my heart dropped into my stomach............and my world stopped.

Tweet: There was an accident on 776 avenue where 5 teenage boys were shot and 4 were killed while drunk at a party. 2 young black males (Josh and Dom) at the age of 18 and 17 were killed instantly while the third victim at the age of 16 died on the way to the hospital. The other 2 black males were rushed to the hospital and that is all we known at this moment.
We will update you all, until further notice... Keep calm and if you have any information please come forward or call 1313-536-74072

...............All i could think was Dre was at 776 avenue last night...
all i keep thinking is this can't be real.... all those texts i sent, i didn't mean it..  was just mad.. i can't .... i can't believe this so i hit up his phone

3:00
Baby please answer this can't be happening
are you okay
baby I'm sorry please be okay
I love you
*no responce*

after a few minutes his mother calls me crying..... and thats when it hit me... i thought my baby was dead and i couldn't breath.. she was about to tell me that the love of my life is dead... i couldn't handle being alone.. not having my cookie right by my side..
so she tries to pull her self together to say......
"h...e...... he... (sobbing) Dre was shot.... and he .... oh my god my baby is dead.... "

.......... my mind went blank i didn't know what to do or say.. all i could think was how could this happen i just saw him last night right before he left.

My baby was just here.. But while I was processing all of this dre's mom told me to meet her at the hospital to see dre. 
So without even thinking about how I look I grab the keys and take the car to start driving to the hospital.
The whole time I am praying to God that this is just a bad dream and my baby will be there.. Alive when I arrive.
In reality I arrived to the total opposite his mother was screaming with gigantic tears streaming down her sad, heartbroken face.
Dre was on life support and a ventilator because the bullet hit his rib which caused his lung to collapse. He looked like he was barely hanging on, his skin was as white as snow, and his lips were turning a strange color. I couldn't help but want to touch my baby boy but as soon as I did do, he went into V-fib and his heart stopped... I never let go of his hand throughout the 5 minutes of the doctors recessatating him until I felt his hand go ice cold....     And the doc say   "call it"
Time of death 5:35
           Dre's mom Ellen  fell to her knees in complete shock as if she can't believe that she just lost her only child... Her baby. Her Everything, he was all she had since her husband left her and dre when he was a kid. And now her she has to put him in the ground.

"Noooooooo my baby boy!!! My baby was suppose to graduate this year. Why!!! Ahhhh my heart can't take this... "
I run to Ellen and hold her while she cried on my chest while I try everything in my power to stay strong for her.
"I am so sorry Ellen... So sorry" I whispered to her. 
As I sat there I remembered all of what I had just lost.
Dre and I have been friends ever since We were little, we met in middle school and we have been friends ever since.
After our senior year he was suppose to ask me to marry him. We are only 18 and we wanted to get married. I was going to marry my best friend. We were both suppose be attending Howard University together I was going to rep for AKAs while he would rep for Alphas
And now my baby is gone. What am I suppose to do now?
As soon as I come to realize Ellen stopped crying I help her up as we both sit in sorrow knowing that a son, a best friend and a soon to be fiancée was just lost.
"He really loved you", Ellen whispered loud enough for me to make out what she said.

"He... Loved you....", She whispered again as she say there.
Ellen continued "Dre can't be.. He can't be ... Go.n... But before she could even get the rest out all of a sudden
I ran into the bathroom and saw my terrible chicken from last nights dinner.
Knock, knock, knock*
"Camren are you Alr sweetie"

         "Yes I'm fine I'll be out in a minute"

But I'm not fine.. The love of my life just died, but so did her son so how can I sit here and cry to her when her only child died, but Dre was the last person in this word who loved me. My pops left, and my mom died a while ago when she found out she had cancer. Dre was it he was my baby and now I'm Alone...

But I don't tell Ellen that I gather myself and get ready to leave when I get the urge to Puke again. But don't.. So I go back to Ellen to see if she is okay.
"Cam I want to kiss my baby boy and stay with him tonight until they move him. Why don't you go home and grab a change of clothes for me darling won't you"

"Sure Ellen, I'll be back in 20 minutes"
So I grab my keys in get ready to leave when I fell this dull pain in my stomach. A feeling I know o so well, the same feeling I had when my mother died.. The feeling of being alone... With no one else to love me.....

Except...

This one is different.. Like I'm.... Off...