"Come on. Hurry up and get ready!" Said Alex.
"Do I have to go back?" I said.
That was my brother, Alex. After my parents died he is the one that has been looking after me.
"Yes you do! Now hurry or your walking, I have work!" Alex shouted.
"But..if I walk I'll be late..and they will just send me home!" I said.
"If you don't move, I'll be dressing you!" Alex laughed.
"Ugh fine. I am getting dressed." I moaned.
I pick up the ugliest clothes ever.
School uniform.
I put skinnys on, a shirt and tie with a jumper that they can't make me take off.
If they did, I'd be in deep trouble.
I quickly put on eyeliner to help make my eyes look better.
"Are you ready?" Alex asks.
"2 minutes!" I reply.
I pick my bag and put my boots on and head downstairs.
"Don't you have to take them piercings out because you have gym today?" Alex points out.
"Hush..I ain't taking them out" I said and walked to the car whilst Alex locks up.
As soon as we head into the road to were my school is I see people talking about me, starring, laughing and judging me probably on the way I look. To everyone here I'm apparently "Emo" & "Goth". But I'm not.
wow, I have black hair and have facial piercings and wear eyeliner.
I am sorry...Can't we all be different instead of being the same?
"You going to be alright?" Alex asks worried.
"Yeah, I'll just have to be." I said getting out and start walking with my earphones in to block everyone out.
Alex has already told me I could transfer schools but there's no point because I know what will happen...It will be the same and then there will be more people going on about me.
more namecalling.
going home with bruises and crying.
I don't want that, so I learn to live with it.
"Emo fag, why haven't you killed yourself yet?"
"Yeah. cut yourself so deep and die"
"guys, guys stop it she doesnt miss her parents"
"Bitch, why are you walking away from us?"
"go away." I cry.
"awh you don't mean that. You should carve my name into your skin"
"why dont you come to the gym after school? you need to lose weight fatty"
I run away and straight into the bathroom.
*Bell goes for class*
"You can't stay in there forever"
I take my phone out and I call Alex.
"here Im at work, go to class" he said.
"I i c-cant do this. I wanna come home!" I cry.
"shhhhh you can be okay? Stay in there. Look stay where you are for first period and calm down and go to period 2, okay?" Alex told me.
"O-okay.." I say quietly.
"I have to go, I love you." He said and hung up.
I go into my bag and take my box out.
I get my key and open the box.
In this box are blades I took one out.
I roll up my sleeve and start to cut deeply into my skin over the scars that are fading. I have to go over them because I feel lost without them.
I watch the blood drip and run down my arm before cleaning them.
I have officially broke down and now I can't stop crying and cutting into my skin.
