Our "Perfect" Family.... NOT

chapter seventeen

I heard the beep of the vitals machine, i slowly opened my eyes. We were in a different room, there.was a tv and a couch, as well as a small sink area. Christian was in a uncomfy looking chair, he laid his head next to my thigh. And i thought how funny it would be if i. Farted righg now, but i was to tired to. I played with his hair, trying so hard to forget about it. "Oh thank god your awake " he said lifting his head. "What happened " my voice choked out. "You lost some blood and you passed out after giving birth to miles" he said. I nodded "they ok?" i asked he nodded and smiled "their perfect, do you want to see them" he asked. I nodded "please" i asked. He nodded and went across the room were two cribs stood, one with a pink blanket and one a blue blanket. He picked up the blue on and then the pink one, miles and milia i thought. He put milia on my chest and used the remote to set me up while i held her, she was sleeping and immediately got comfy on me. "Ready for the other one" he asked. I nodded, he laid miles on me. He was identical to his sister but he was a bit larger and had a freckle on his upper eyebrow. I kissed his nose and then hers. Milia sneezed after causing me to chuckle. " they both have bright blue eyes" he said. I nodded my eyes were grey but i knew were the got it. "My brother and dad had like electric blue eyes" i said. He nodded. "They have you nose and ears" he said. I looked up at him, and smiled "they are beautiful " i said. He nodded "ya they are" he agreed. "I want to hold them forever but im tired" i said. He nodded and picked them up after i gave them a kiss. He kissed them as well and put them in there cribs. He walked back to his chair, "can we talk first" he said. I nodded "ok what happened with Amber was a misunderstanding, ok" he said. I just looked at him not responding "ok i was sleeping with you and then the door was opened. I flipped out thinking it was a intruder, but she was there, i pushed her out when all of a sudden she wrapped her arms around me and kissed me,before i could push her away you came, i pushed her off me, everytime i felt her touch i felt nauseated with myself, the only person i want touching me is you and our babies,ok if i could i would bleach my lips ok" he said, i nodded. "I think i need space... And i think im moving out with the babies till i figure my shit out, ok you can see them whenever you want, and keep there room stuff, i have a fold up crib till i get my shit figured out ok" i said. His eyes glazed over and he took a step back. He nodded "fine, whatever " he said and walked out. He stopped at the doorway "i love you carly, no matter what you think i do, and i always will, " he said. I was stressed out now, i grabbed my phothat laid on the nightstand, i had four missed calls and three text messages. I opened them up all from Stacey

OMG babe you make the cutest babies, when i came you were sleeping, feel better

Hey babe miles just threw up on Keith lol

Milia and miles have the most beautiful eyes.... Like Michaels...

Christian hasn't left our side, that boy loves you, dont leave him, see you in the morning!!

I knew he loved me but i just need to. Figure my shit out, i soghed and put it down knowing she would be here bright and early.

"Your a mommy " carly screeched. I jumped up and immediately regretted it, the fast movement made my, down there hurt. She smiled and came.over to me holding milia and Keith held miles. I saw just how blue their eyes were, i smiled "will you to br the god parents? " i asked "i still have to check with Christian but im sure he would be fine with it" i said. I looked up from my baby she was holding and there.were tears forming in her eyes, and a warm gooey smile on her face. I looked at Keith he had a blank face, but nodded as well, "yes i would love to" she said. I smiled "can i hold her?" she nodded and gave her to me, i looked into her eyes and she stared up into mine. "Hey im gonna hit the pot" Keith said giving carly the miles. She nodded as keith went to go to the bathroom. As soon as he was out the door, she looked at me "what happened between you and Christian, i saw him this morning and he gave you and the kids a kiss then ledt the room as if his ass was on fire, and spill fast guys pee insanely fast, probly since they could care less were it goes but you get the point" she said. I sighed "last night somegirl was at the apartment kissing and feeling him up, even thow he pushed her away, i dont know if he is gonna stay with me, he'll probably end up leaving me for some small pretty thing, and i need space to think so im moving out till i figure my shit out" i said still focusing on my baby at hand. She looked at me with pity in her eyes, "honey the way he looks at you, the way he had a broken look in his eyes he wont leave you for all the money in the world " she said. We swapped babies just as a nurse came "ok hun im supposed to teach you how to feed the babies, are you planning on breast feedinh them?" i nodded, "well what i would do is at feeding times take turns feeding one breast milk and then using formula for the other so each time you switch back and forth, or you can pump you milk so they both get get it, but feeding them both breast milk will certainly ware out your breasts" she said. I nodded as she showed me how to work the breast pump then showed me how to feed them. By the t .uk me she was done i had feed both miles and milia, she showed me.how to change diapers and everything. "And i already showed your husband all this" shd said as she left the room. "So weird, having them say he is my husband " i said, Stacy nodded. "I just need to Figure out where im gonna stay, i mean i gave you my apartment, ugh" i sighed.Keith walked in "were the hell have you been" Stacy said. He shrugged "i walked around a bit aftrr the bathroom and found vending machines " he said and handed Stacy cheetos, then threw some at me. "Then i had to pee again " he shrugged. Stacy rolled her eyes. I was holding both babies, and they were soundly sleeping. "Hey keith can i talk to you outside real quick " she dragged him out the room. I heard murmurs and made faces at miles who had woken up. He smiled up at me. He was so adorable as well as milia. Stacy walked back in with Keith she smiled at me "i have the next couple weeks off, and we want you to move in with us till you can go back to work or decide to move with Christian " she said. I shook my head "you shure" i said "i dont want to intrude " i said. "Its alright carly, you introduced us and even let me stay at your place those couple times, i want to we repay you, and this is our way" he said. I nodde "so your staying with us"stacy asked. I nodded and she giggled and jumped around. Christian walked in and i felt some what bad, he did have a broken look in his eyes. "Well give you some space, " she said. Christian came and stood by me and took milia. "I want us to be together, not just because of the kids but cause i love you, and want no one but you" he said. Tears started to come down but did my best to keep them at bay. "Christian i just dont know, but i just think we need a break, ok" i said. He shook his head. "Fine, but do you need me to get you a apartment?" he asked. I shook my head "im staying with Stacy and Keith, ill probably get my job back at the bar, and you or Stacy can watch them if your not busy, stacy said she would she has the next couple months off" i said. He nodded, milia had his finger in her little palm. Her eyes fluttered fast but never opened. "Shes dreaming" i said. He nodded, "um i have to go to work so i better head out" he said. I nodded "you got a job ?" i asked. He nodded "im working for my fathers company " he said. I nodded " i thought you didn't want to work for him?" i asked. He shook his head "i need to get over myself, and grow up, i have kids of my own now" he said. I admired that about him. He put milia in her crib. "Hey before you leave can you help me up i need to stretch and pee" i asked. He nodded and took miles from me and put him in the crib. He walked back to me and helped me up. And made sure i got tto the bathroom ok. When i came out he kissed miles and milias head, then came to me and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes, i never knew i would miss it thta much. "Sorry habit" he said. I nodded "its ok, thanks for the help" i said.