My Beautiful, Smashed, Conplicated Heart

Chapter 1

Hi. Im Katherine. But most people just call me Kay Although my life sounds ordinary. It's full of drama and i have way too much of that then i need.

I stood there. Shaking in fear. My mousy brown hair stuck to my face. My pale blue eyes watery from the lack of sleep. My pale complexion, paler than usual. Having to face her and my old friends again, thats going to be a challenge. Ever since the fight i haven't even talked to her and everyday i dred bumping into her or even seeing her. I feel guilty about my Ex friend Erica. 16 years old. Hair dyed so much you can't even tell what her natural hair colour is. This is reality. This is life. This really sucks. So me and Erica have been friends for 1 year and 1/2, she seemed really nice at first, then i found out what i had really gotten myself into. Erica denies everything. She denies that she controls people and that she is a drama queen.Both of those are true. She also thinks the world revolves around her because my friend Jessica is dating her ex- boyfriend Miles. I get that shes hurt but she just can't tell Jessica who and who not to date. Jessica recently broke up with her boyfriend Dean and now Dean is going on how everything was her fault. But everybody saw it. He was always flirting with Erica. And Erica was clueless. Well back to Erica, long story short her and Miles have an on and off again realtionship. Right now there off. They've been doing this since middle school, thats one of the reasons that caused drama between me and Erica. Painful memories filled inside me as walked down the halls. " Oh, no" i thought. My friend Jessica headed me way.

" Hey Kay" she said. " Uh, Hi.." I really missed Jessica, she was a good friend, the only problem was she hangs out with Erica. Just then i saw Erica and her friend Olivia. Ugh can this day get any worse? Olivia was my friend last year in ninth grade but then Erica seems to take everything away from me. "Hi" Erica said in her usual high pitched, sqeaky voice.

" Hi, um i gotta go.."

"Whats wrong" Erica asked.

"Oh boy, Drama. Olivia mummered.

I rolled my eyes.Erica looked concerned, her greyish, blue eyes foucused on me.

I couldn't care less.

I sighed. " Nothings wrong Erica, Why do you always think that?" I shot back.

I was not in the mood for her stupidity.

I paused and took a deep breath. " I gotta go.. bye"

I turned and walked away, as i looked back i saw Jessica worried and Erica and Olivia chatting. But then just as i thought i was off the hook. No. Erica leaves Jessica and Olivia and starts walking towards me. Here we go again. I've had it with her. If she was choosing to get me in a bad mood then she was gonna get me in a bad mood. I've had a Erica overdose. I continued walking down the stairs with Erica only metres behind. I went to my locker. I got my books for my morning classes. I showed little interest in her. But she still headed my way.

" Erica please leave me alone" i managed to say in a low voice.

"What?" she said confused. "

"Just nevermind"

I slammed my locker and headed to my class.That was the end of me being Miss Nice Girl. I barely got through my history class. My mind was a thousand miles away. I was thinking of Erica and how she was so immature. I thought about all my problems. I guess i could be more outgoing. I was kinda a loner. I had only a couple of close friends. But i was just one face in a crowd. I never did anything extrordinary. I'm just ordinary. I've never had a boyfriend. Even though i've been asked out a couple of times. Never been kissed. Still a virgin. Miss Goody Two shoes. Five. Four. Three. Two. One. The bell rang. I jumped out of my seat and headed off for lunch. When i got to my locker Erica was waiting for me. I was nervous and my body filled with fear.