My Beautiful, Smashed, Conplicated Heart

Continued..

The day felt like it was years. I finally had my english class, my only class i had with Jess, but in this case it was terrible. She would know something was up. Just don't act suspicious. I sat as far away from Jessica as I could. But she noticed as she made her way over and took the seat across from me. She smiled as i looked her way

." What's up?" she simply asked.

"Uhh.... nothing" i said, not trying to to be obvious.

I loved Jessica like a sister and i always wanted to be that way, unlike Erica, we used to be best friends but it's not like i was a friend she held close to her heart, No she had like several best friends and the statuses she posts on facebook, she does to hurt me, now i'm starting to see who she really is, a nasty, self centered, drama queen, theres nothing more to her, other then being a wannabe. I'm glad i saw through her , i'm glad i'm done with her, I'm glad i have a good friend like Jess when i need a shoulder to lean on, Erica was never there for me, it has to be a balance but i felt like i couldn't tell her stuff, because she was too wrapped up in her own life. Isn't it funny how you think you know someone but they turn out to be completely different, the exact opposite of what you'd thought they be?

Anyways, back out of my long thoughts, i think a lot, I smiled at Jess, even though it killed me inside, that i was starting to like her boyfriend and actually considered going out with him.

Suddenly Mr. Creskey came in and we started our daily disscussions for our english class.

This was so unlike me, i was always prepared and ready to participate in classroom disscussions. But today i just lacked focus, after everything that was going on. I know I should always put school, before my social life, but right now that mattered more than school. And....

"Ms. Johnson, do you know the famous poet who wrote sonnets?"

"ummm was it Leonardo Divinci?"

The whole class burst out luaghing just as i realized my answer. My cheeks burned with embaressment. Mr. Creskey quieted down the class.

"No, Ms. Johnson, you would know exactly what we were talking about if you were paying attention" he stammered.

Geez for a short little man, Mr. Creskey sure has a big mouth, I thought.

I told myself to calm down, as Jessica looked at me sympathetically.

"Can anyone else answer the question?" asked Mr. Creskey impatiently. Monica Reed raised her hand. "Yes Ms. Reed

"Thats easy Mr.Cresky, It's Shakesphere. It's not very hard when you pay attention in class.

I boiled up inside, Monica always tries to make a fool out me and steals all the attention from other people, only to give it to herself. Just like Erica i thought, only Erica didn't have a snobby attitude. Thank goodness.

"Thank you Ms. Reed, now we shall move on to todays lesson. As Mr.Creskey began writing on the board, Monica gave me and evil smirk, i shot her a dirty look and then she simply rolled her eyes and mouthed 'loser!'

I ignored Monica for the rest of class. Then the bell rang and Jessica joined me in the hall. "Hi, Kay" she piped up."Hi' i said back. then i fell silent the rest of the way to class.