A Look Inside My Head

Why

Darkness creeps in the corners of my mind
Being perfect isn't enough
These rules, regulations and thoughts are my tightening binds
Every dark thought bellows upwards in puffs
I'm a walking corpse
No longer a living, breathing soul
Because yes, I am alive, but my core is warped
Every late night, evil words and demons are taking its toll
Each step I take is closer to my impending oblivion
Take a deep breath before I can't
Please forgive me for every sin
Let my last footfall echo for everyone to hear
I know my end is near
Every day the sickening stench of death emits from my pores
The sickness clogs and takes over my mind
This is something I've grown to ignore
But no, alas it's time, to look inside
Why,
Why, is the question I ask myself every waking moment
Why, is the reason I refuse to give up
Why, is the reason I am here
It's the reason I strive and push myself
Because even if I know my time will be short, that my downfall is near
I need to make very moment count
To know, I tried my very hardest and did my ultimate best
Because I asked myself why not?
Why should I limit myself?
Every challenge silences those demons that attack
Silences every nerve in my body
Every fear
And every bad thought
Every challenge is my utopia
I will not be remembered as the person who drowned in their own venom
Criticized their own work
Doubted themselves
Or hindered possibilities that are endless
I will strive
Adventure
Smile
And live life
Finding new ways to silence those demons in my head
Until the very moment they catch up
But until then
Ask yourself,
Why?