Jjs PoV
Oh my good god, what have I done.
Simon is amazing, he was. Is the most amazing person I have ever known and I've just let him slip away from like that. The first to fully accept me, the first to go on a date with me, the first to squeeze my hand when I got frightened,the first to care about me,
The first to love me
I've made a huge booboo putting my petty problems before him. I had no clue what he was going through. Fuck I need to fix this.
Yinka: Answer me asap please
Jj: Ok Mum x
Yinka is calling...
My hand shivers as I press that accept call button.
"Son we have a bit of a situation regarding you and your... Boyfriend "
The fact that she hesitated saying boyfriend makes me so fucking sick.
I was raised into excepting other races, what's the difference with sexuality??
"You might want to see for yourself honey."
"Mum I'm about to go out just tell me."
"Honey, Simon was found passed out on the floor in an alleyway uttering something about his Mum, the police have said that he was forced into drugs and then was smacked over the head with a large object. Possibly a bat. He's currently at the hospital and wants to see you."
I can't even string together the words that were said. I feel as if they're all just letters floating in my alphabet soup.How could she say that without the slightest bit of emotion?
"I'm on my way"
I'm incapable of crying at this moment.My body feels numb.
20 mins later
"Jj you're here!"
"Oh my fucking god look at you Simon you're a mess, what happened, are you ok, has anyone been arrested?!"
"Calm down, the police are doing the best they can. And yes I'm healing great thanks, nothing some meds and Netflix can't fix"
"Thank heavens, I'm so glad"
Simon smiled at me weakly but I know it was sincere he was just hurting.
"Si I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for not caring, for putting myself before you,for not considering your feelings, I'm sorry for not showing you I loved you."
Simons eyes watered and his face scrunched up he started to choke back tears.
I will love you no matter what Olajide
