[A/N]: Ergg not my best work. I planned on just crapping this out, but it turned out so angsty and took so much more thought...Vote, Comment, Fan anyway?
[dedicated to]: defend because she finished Door to Door and it’s amazing. :)
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It lulled me to sleep,
his yelling.
So frequent
it was like the air we breathed,
that reaching for cold cigarette,
and the lighting of another.
We didn’t talk much.
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We talked until our stomachs hurt from laughing.
Summer,
and the fireflies were out.
When I didn’t catch one,
he gave me his.
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It snowed yesterday.
No heating,
no blankets,
I was cold.
It didn’t matter to him,
I didn’t matter to me.
He had whiskey,
I had shivers.
We didn’t share.
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There was ice cream.
And
there was ice cream,
splattered on his new shirt.
Vanilla with rainbow sprinkles,
he was wearing black.
He hugged me,
kissed me,
twirled me around,
and poured slushie
all over my hair.
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My cheek was purple,
yellow,
and red in the fresh places of the imprint.
tripped,
I said.
I hadn’t.
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Marry me,
he had said.
I had said yes,
and I had said yes,
and I had said yes.
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Cigarette smoke,
blown on the sheets.
Inhaling,
my shaking stopped,
a little.
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New dress,
red with thin straps down the back.
For me.
New job, he said,
but it ripped when I sat.
Laughter,
flushed cheeks,
another glass of wine.
He loved wine;
I loved him.
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Wine.
Whiskey,
Vodka,
Cheap beer from the corner store,
I inhaled,
still shaking.
………...
No job,
He said.
Took the engagement ring,
Sold it.
We need money, he said.
Okay.
I saw the beer he bought.
Kissed him anyway.
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He was asleep,
Collapsed on the couch.
No more yelling.
I walked,
It was cold and it was dark,
I lit a cigarette
And breathed.
............
We fell
Like the leaves
That dropped from the trees
Slowly at first
Then fast,
Until the ground was covered with dead things.
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Snow falling from the sky,
I caught some on my tongue,
And it melted.
I kept walking.
