Anonymous Confessions... Mature

Confession

I'm fourteen years old. When I was younger my birthmom used to abused me (I was like eight) anyway there was a girl name Candace, me and her had sex a couple times... She was two years older than me. I enjoyed it. Heck I still have dreams about it. When I moved to the untied states I got taken away from my mom and I was put in a foster family. First year I met a girl two years younger than me... I feel so bad about it cause we and her friend who was three years younger than me we ended up a groupie I would kiss them... They would finger me. My parents found out and needless to say I was grounded for three years. 

Nine months ago I was playing on Minecraft and I met a guy. We were doing a Roleplay on a holiday and he started doing sex with me in the Roleplay and I just went with it.

Needless to say it lead to an unhealthily relationship we would because Roleplay our sexual relations. I didn't want to do it I felt pressured. Later on he has the odasity to say that he felt used and that I was using him as a toy. 

First of all I never did it first he always made the move.

Secondly I tired to break the relationship up many times but failed he was sucudial and stuff and yeah...

Now, he hates me and I didn't do anything we were even considered official. When another guy said he liked me and I liked him too he flipped at me. 

He says that I'm a lair and back-stabber...

I feel guilty for Hurting him...

But now he's hurting me way too much...

I still want to be friends with him is that bad? 

He tells me to forget him but... I think I'm still way too attached to him to do that... then again everything he did and said was show.

I hate him, but I love him. 

He calls me an asshole and motherfucker...

I call him a sweetheart and a friend.

It feels so good getting this out!!!

Even though I'm crying I'm glad I could tell someone.

Now I'm straight and crushing on my best friend (who's a guy) 

wish me luck? 

Nah don't do that I just needed to get it all out and I did. Thank you so much.