Leap of faith

Chapter 3

Guys I know I said I'd update last week but I was so busy and I wanted to make the chapter good and not rushed!!! So anyway here it is I hope you guys like it!
Play the song while reading it. He's amazing ❤️I feel like the song captures the message of how's she's feeling.

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Do you ever feel that you don't belong.? Or that you feel like such an outsider to this world? Here we are in this world meant to do something special with our life's, yet there are so many darn obstacles to go through. Do you ever feel like giving up? Why aren't we taking more risks in life? We only live once. We only get one life.

Here I am sitting, waiting for something that might not even happen. Some people like to call it fate. But I call it disappointment. Here let me rewind for you guys to get a better grasp on what's happening right now...

Tuesday morning, I hear a loud noise downstairs. Of course me being me I had to see what it was. Honestly, I should've at least brought something to protect me with. As I reach the end of the stair case trying not to make a sound. I notice a familiar shadow... It was my father. I haven't seen him in over two months, when he  "supposedly"  left for a business trip. But what he doesn't know is that I know is little secret. He's not who he says he is . Seeing him I felt my throat begin to close up and little baby sweats forming on the top of my forehead. I couldn't utter a word. He wasn't he person I use to look up to, the man who I knew would always make the right decision. All he was now was a person in my life that I barely knew. Lucky he still didn't notice me. So I had time to creep back up the stairs. "Half way there faith" saying mentally, till I heard a Cricking noise which he obviously heard. Turing quickly around he looked a me shocked with wide eyes. Then he finally spoke:
"Faith I-I didn't know you were here" he stuttered.
It took all my might not to explode or give a cold glare, it could blow my cover with him.
" Well you would know if you were ever home" I said calmly fighting off a disgusted look
"Faith you know I have to work to provide this good life for you to live" he said with a smile
"You know "Right in the middle of replying back to him , his stupid phone rings
"Hello Victoria, I'm sure I can arrange that in my day.. Hmm yes I like the sound of that, see you soon." He said sweetly with an arrogant smile on his face
  Looking at him with disgust he says "Faith please have a seat let's talk"

"I don't want to have a seat , I have to go visit mama and pray that she gets better. So you can leave!  Also did you ever go and visit her huh? Did you ever see if you wife was okay from surgery? She could've died yet all you care about is your stupid company." I said beginning to get more angry
" You may not talk not to me like that young lady I'm still your father and I did what I could, I was just busy."
"No! I yelled you didn't do crap." I began to turn my back when he grabbed my wrist
" Faith be sure to tell your mother I say hello" he said with emotions running in his eyes.
How could he say something like that when he doesn't love her anymore? Or even if he did how could he love someone when he doesn't even love himself ? First maybe he should take a good look in the mirror and see who or maybe what he's become.
" You already know my answer to that dear father" I said with a sickly sweet voice. Yanking my arm and dashing upstairs with tears burning in my eyes.

So here I am waiting, feeling like I don't belong. Ready to give up. Sitting on the park bench watching parents and there young children enjoy there happy ever after. Wondering how I got so unlucky? What did I do to deserve this? Am I suppose to continue on with life like nothing ever happened? Tears still heavily falling down my face. Thoughts running thousand miles per minute.

A little girl comes and sits right next to time with curly ringlets falling on her face and her legs dangling from the park bench. She begins to speak:
" what's wrong? "  she asked
I looked up and gave her a sad smile " rough day"
She frowned at my words and said " you know some pewple do things for certain reasons."ending with soft smile and giving me a small hug.
" My name is charlwtte holding her hand out.
She looked about five years old. Cute as a button if I might add.
Here I am still looking at her in shock for what just she said.. She was so smart for her age. It seemed like she had experienced something that could've happened to her family or maybe just her. Snapping out of my thoughts I realized I still didn't tell her my name.
" Oh it's nice to meet you I'm faith" I said with a smile
She returned the smile and said "Do you want to go play?" While hopping off the bench
"Sure" I said
Running to the rusty swing set I began to push her , her yelling higher higher in between  giggles.
Flashback: 11 years ago
Daddy, daddy look swings! Can you push me!! I said  giggling
Running towards them as fast as I could with my little legs I jumped on them and waited for him to come over. Wiggling to get comfortable he made is way towards me a began pushing me.
Me yelling higher higher daddy!
"Of course pumpkin" he said with a loving smile
" daddy can we go get ice cream after this?!"
" whatever you like baby bear" he said
" yay thank you daddy" I said excited to stuff my face
" daddy who are those scary  guys staring at us?
" faith sweetie daddy gonna be right back I need to go to the bathroom, don't leave stay here I'll be right back" he said leaving going in the direct towards the bathroom, Minutes later I saw the two big scary guys approach my father in the corner. It looked like they were having a heated conversation. My father looked a little paler then usual from what the guy just said, I Remember very vaguely the tall scary  man with a scar of the corner of his jaw saying, "get the problem fixed or else." This was the second  time I saw a deadly anger flash through his eyes. His faced turned cold as stone, no emotion. From that day in I knew something wasn't right. I knew that my father wasn't someone who he said he was.

Present day:
Returning back hearing Charlotte laughter with tears visible still in my eyes I saw a boy around my age. He looked oddly familiar, like I've seen him Before.
"Char where have you been? I've been looking for you everywhere! He exclaimed
" I sowrry"she said getting off the swings
"It's okay,  just don't run off like that you scared me... "He said kneeing before her
Looking up at me with eyes slightly going wide. Probably noticing my redness and puffiness surrounding my eyes. 
Then it finally hit me  he was the boy from the hospital. Not saying anything I just smiled slightly.
"What's wrong with your face" he asked in a rude voice
Ahh there's the attitude AGAIN!!
" Nothing amazingly what's wrong with yours?"I said not in the mood to argue.
He looked slightly shocked, and getting ready to say something but Charlotte beats him to it" Grayson don't me mewn! She's faith my friend! "
Noticing that he wasn't saying anything for a few minutes , I could tell he was studying me slightly.
" Uh well it's nice to meet you Grayson" I said with a normal face and bored tone.
" Yeah well I wish I could say the same" picking faith up in his arms
" Anyway as much as I love to continue this boring conversation we have to go so yeah whatever bye." He said with Charlotte trying to wiggle out of his arms. Surprising he left her go and she ran to me and gave me a hug in my legs.
" Byeee faith see you lawter waving at me and walking with Grayson
Returning the smile " Bye Charlotte thank you for letting me play with you"
Then and there he grabbed her and left with a slight nod.

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Moms, they're always there to pick up the pieces. They been with us since day one. Once we were planted within them it was their job to care and love us. Sure some don't always fulfill that. But deep down inside they will always love us no matter if they didn't show us. For me there has always been one thing I can count on, it was and always will be my mom. For every broken  heart, to every tear shed, to secrets split to her when i had no one else. She understood, she knew, she loved, She experienced.

Approaching the gravel pavement of the hospital. I thought about all the events that happened. Seeing my father made me feel as if i was in a movie, and every bad memory came flooding back like a thunderstorm. Nothing was real from that man. Everything he said was a lie. The only person I still have in this tragic world is my mom. She's my getaway to take the pain away. Entering into the hospital door entrance, inhaling the smell of bleach and rubber was something that I could never get use to. It always gave me this woozy feeling. Speeding up my paste to find my moms room, knowing that if i continue at a snail paste I will fall over crying. Now in a full run down the linoleum floors hallways.

In the back round hearing nurses say" no running in the halls!"with them say scowling me                        Not listening  to them and running down the halls. Finally arriving at the wooden door , swinging  it open to see my mother, but it wasn't just my mom who was there with her it was the last person who I expected to see. Still in plain shock!

"What in the sweet petunias is going on here???" I stated loudly                                                                      Still a little shaken up form the previous   

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Thank you guys for reading this story... This story is very personal to me. I hope you enjoy this amazing journey.❤️❤️I'm going to update next week Friday
Lots of 💗Emilie.