Im Done With My Mate

Chapter 26 - Finding Myself

Alex pov

It has been a while since i have spoken to Sebastian. I  have taken this time to reflect on my situation 

I was walking along the edge of the forest. Everything seemed so peaceful. I can feel a certain energy much more powerful then my understanding. I felt safe even though their was huge threat against my, my pack , and most importantly my children . Their hasn't been any signs of this mysterious menace but i know he is out their. I needed to stop thinking about this. It made my tune salad i had for lunch come back up. But even though i tried it still kept going on in the back of my head. What would change after this battle. What will happen to my friends and family.

And then like always my thoughts reverted back to Sebastian . Why couldn't i stop thinking of that cheating a-hole. Many times i wish i could just forgive but that is manly my wolf talking. Understandable, she wanted to be with her one true love. That's more than I can say about Sebastian. My mined just has the burning image of him and Katherine in bed. Evan though everything seems to be going well with me and her I cant help but think about it.

I just wish he would have told me straight to my  face the second it happened instead of me finding them after it had happened after a while and leaving me feeling betrayed by the people that are supposed to protect me from the hurt. I really don't know if i could ever really love Sebastian the way i did before . It may have not that long ago but i feel as though I was child back because know I know you cant trust many people, not even the one you sleep with.

And to top it off im having his babies. 

Alex!'' Here was the a-hole himself.

What Sebastian ? I was having a nice walk.'' I said turning away from him.

Well its not very safe out here for you or the children.''He said trying to pull me back to the house.

Let me go I'm fine , I know you have the guards following me around.'' I told him

What are doing here anyways?" He asked

I was thinking " trying to walk away from him.

About us?" He said looking deeply into my eyes

Yes'' I tried not to give him the satisfaction of me thiking about the relationship.

What more do i have to do for you to believe that i am truly sorry for what i did. I should have told you from the beginning. She was the one that started that whole thing. All I tried to do was keep her from telling you the truth.I love you and that's the one thing that will never change. What more can i do?''He asked,

Do you really want to know?'' I said looking at him dead in the eyes . 

Yes'' He said.

You can grow some balls. The one thing i never here from you is It was my fault . You have never except your mistakes. Yes Katherine started it but you could have ended it that very second but you choose to just let it keep going which means that you had to have enjoyed it at least a little. I'm tired of hearing 'it was her fault' in everything you say because you know what it takes two to tango.At least she had that balls to come and tell me that it was her fault . Kat was more mature than you have ever been in apologize and takes blame for what she did. You on the other hand just sit their and point fingers. I cant believe that you didn't even think of the repercussions of that situation . What if you got her pregnant what than, Would we be having a double baby shower from that same father. Some alpha your suppose to be you cant even stop to say maybe i should stop this and tell Katherine face to face but no you took the easy way out and just hid behind your lies. What i want from is not an 'I'm sorry' or an 'i love you' I want  for you to tell me i take full responsibilities for your actions because at the end of the day you where also responsible because whether i want it or not my children and all the other children in this pack will and do lock up to and will want to follow in your foot steps. Know its up to you because at this point I'm past i'm sorry. I'm done." I left him with his thoughts. Hopefully know he can mature from what i said

Me on the other hand well i have to move forward for my family. Evan if that family doesn't include Sebastian.

Authors note

Hey, I know its been along time but i decided to make the story a bit longer so there is going to be few more chapters and you still have time to suggest baby names. Anyways tell me who you want to here more of Alex ,Mel. Kat or maybe one of the boys. Please keep commenting and liking. See you soon kitties. E.V Out *_*