Her Secret Story

Chapter One - The Beginning

My friend's keep bugging me to update this so here ya go, hope you enjoy.

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Dairy Entry:

Dear Dairy,

My name is Ellie. I'm just a 13 year old girl, but except I'm not like any of the other girls. I'm considered "different". Also known as freak of the school.

They say society judges you on your looks, well, not really. I'm not conceited or anything, but I do have to admit that I'm pretty. Infact I'm listed in the top ten for prettiest girls in the school.

So now you're probably wondering why I'm not popular? Well, it's because of my personality. I am probably ranked lowest for the "likeable" list.

Everyone just.. hated me. My mother says that the girls are just jealous of me, I quite disagree as the boys dislike me too.

When girls started wearing those 'new fashion trends' I would just pick out anything from my closet, which is full of dull boring clothes my mum buys me.

On picture day last year, I came to school wearing an 'I love Mum' shirt. My mother convinced to wear it because it was 'cute' and I didn't want to let her down. Believe me, I was the school's laughstock. I was a joke. They all called me 'mamas girl' and teased me for about a week. But it was actually funny watching their immatations of being a mum. Just not mine.

A few weeks ago our class was discussing what they wanted to be when they grew up. Of course all the girls choose singers, dancers, actors, ballerinas, fashion designers and make-up artists. And all the boys? Soccer or football players, doctors, actors, karate masters and more.

But me? I just raised my hand and said, "I wanna be a scientist, just like Albert Einstein. I wanna create new inventions that will help the world and environment."

Everyone stayed silent for a while and looked at me like I had just grown another head, then they immediatly laughed. They laughed and laughed and teased. I just starred at the horrifying sight of ugly laughers. They had the sound of pigs rolling in mud.

At first I thought everything was going to be ok, and they wouldn't bully me about it. But it just seemed to get worse. I got teasted, neglected, abused, hated, just every single bad thing you can think of.

At that stage, I became very suicidal.

I didn't wanna go to school after that, I just stayed home for a week and cried. I cried and cried and cried. I still have all the feelings and tears inside me, the crying's stopped but my body is really weak.

I eventually got forced to go. I couldn't stay home anyways, my mother has cancer and she's really sick, so she had to go to the hospital alot, she can't take care of me so much anymore.

So far, it's been 2 days after I went back to school, and a few people are still at it. They all laugh at me & they've made me a really nice nickname, they call me 'Ellie Einstein'.

Honestly, at this moment I'm sick of everything, I don't care anymore, I just find all of this funny. The fact they bully me and have no idea of my anything in my life, it's like all they do is judge me.

They have no idea how sad and depressed I get sometimes because of them, they have no idea how much I cry myself to sleep because of them, and to make things worse, no one has any idea how much scars I have to hide.