Maria..?

Suicide? Suicide.

Shadow woke up from a deep, deep sleep. His eyes slowly opened with a long, slow sigh that came out of his slightly opened, morning mouth. He slowly sat up in bed and politely tossed the covers off of him. He felt the cold air of his air conditioner hit his body and strike goosebumps down his arms and back. "Gee, I didn't think it would get this cold over night just by having the AC on." He then, being so cold, forced himself out of bed to shut the air conditioner off. Shadow looked around his room and just stood there, lost in his thoughts, thinking it wasn't clean enough. Though it was, his depression made him feel like nothing was good enough.
"Shadow, you're perfect just the way you are. You try your hardest and that's all that madders."
He really missed Maria's words of encouragement. Maria was like shadow's anti-depressant. She could wipe every worry he had away with just one hug.
He thought about her warm hugs as he dragged himself to his dark living room, where he would sit by the window and sing a depressing song to let his emotions out, and think about Maria.

" She seems dressed in all the rain. Stretched across my shame. All the torment and the pain."

This is the song he likes to sing when he really thinks deeply about Maria. It makes him feel like he's talking to her again.

"I'd do anything to have her to myself. Just to have her for myself. Now I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do when she makes me sad."

He saw the birds out. All the very clouds turned white, the grey sky turned blue, And his house... His house was nothing but darkness, letting that one window open for him to feel connected to Maria without anyone else... Knowing she was somewhere high above where he wasn't.

"But I won't let this build up inside of me... I won't let this build up inside of me..."

He kept singing. But he hesitantly closed that one window. The only window he wanted to keep open, he closed it. And he walked himself, dead inside, to the kitchen, almost forgetting the words of the song he was singing at that moment.
He gently picked up a knife from the top counter thst he had laying there for a whole week. He stared at it in the dim darkness and slowly began to stop singing. He looked around with a solid face, spoke to himself.
"No one is here. No one has been here for a few weeks. Every one else is happy... Everyone else has a life. Ever since she left, I have no life. If I take it, it wouldn't be a loss. It's already gone without her." He carefully carressed the blade against his skin, contemplating to sink it in.
"It won't be long, Maria, you'll have me again."
He slowly dug the knife into his arms. He was filled with so much unbearable pain. But he knew why he was doing it, he couldn't help but to keep going. He needed Maria again. He was already gone. He thought though... How would Maria think of him? Harming himself judt to be with her again?
"Shadow! I never want to see you hurt. Especially if I'm the reason you're hurt. Dont ever get yourself, if you were to, I wouldn't be able to live with myself!"

Shadow couldn't stop now. He watched as the blood gushed out of the gash he caused himself in his arm. He felt more and more doozy, losing so much blood by the minute. In so much pain, but so much happiness of nearly being reunited with his best friend. He had more and more visions of her and he grew happier and happier from the pain.
"I love you shadow! Have a good day!"
"Don't ever leave me. Please?"
"You're an amazing person, don't let anyone tell you different"

Shadow then finally grew so weak, he couldn't hold himself up any longer and felt to the ground of his kitchen, into a bloody puddle. He was so happy. "Im coming Maria..." But then his last sight broke him...

"Shadow. Promise me if I leave before you do, you'll make the world a better place? And remember. I'm always here. *she places her hand on shadows heart, laying to die in his arms covered in blood.* Even if my mind and voice is not here, my soul will always be with you"

Shadow had realized what he did. It was too late though. Hid vision had turned clear white and everything he heard was but of static.
The last thing he heard from his ears was a door that broke down and a familiar voice shouting his name.

"Shadow? SHADOW!!!"

((That's part one guys! I hope you like so far! I'm sorry if it's too short for your liking.))