"Dear Synney,
I never really knew you, you were just another friend, but when I got to know you, I let my heart unbend, I couldn't help past memories that would only make me cry, I had to forget my first love and give love another try. So I have fallen in love with you & I will never let you go, I love you more than anyone, I just had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I don't know what I will say but I will never stop loving you each and every day. My feelings for you will never change, just know my feelings are true. Just remember one thing, I Love You..."
Three days. These were your exact words three days before you left. Two days before you kissed her. Three days before you decided to be with her.
I loved you. So much. You were my everything; my breath; my heart; my light; the blood on my dance floor.<3
It hapened last weekend. We were going to hang out, but i had a change of plans.
" Im sorry, i cant. Next weekend?" i had said to you.
"Of cource! i love you!" you had said back.
And i believed this. I truely, and utterely thought you loved me, and only me. You had told me so many times. All those hugs and kisses we had shared, the love i thought i felt when we did- they were all just really a lie.
The next day you decided to go hang out with your ex. Your beautiful, funny, amazing ex. She was the type of girl who any guy would kill their own mothers for, and any guy would be lucky to have. She knew this. She knew how guys thought of her, and how girls praised her. She took advantage of it every chance she got.
The next day, at school, i knew something was up. And i knew it was her fault. I walked down the hallway, headed towards your locker. You look over at me, and i smile at you. You dont smile back, you just look away as fast as you could. For the rest of the day, you avoid all contact with me and with our great friend, Raquel.
That night, you hung with her again. You and her began taking pictures together, and making online statuses about funny convorsations you guys had. She always happen to put a heart after your name. This was when i began setting myself up, trying to become stronger. I knew we were done. I knew you were going to leave me. I had my guard up.
Then when the time finally came, you tried to sugar coat it.
"Are you truely happy with me?" you had asked me. The first worlds you had spoken to me in three days. I thought about what i should say. I could have just flat out said yes, but instead i came straight out that i knew what he was doing.
"I knew this was coming. Just do it already.."
You gave me a confused look, as if you never really were going to break up with me. This gave me a bit of hope that you wanted to stay with me. You were responding, so i spelt it out for you. "If your going to break up with me, just do it,"
Theres was a long pause. Then the two words i had been dreading, the two words that i knew but didnt want to believe would come out of your mouth:
"Its over."
I didnt move, i could move. I just sat there. Then, i realized all i had just lost in those two words.
I realized that i could no longer call you mine. I could no longer wait for you before we leave school just to hug you, and maybe swipe a kiss. I could no longer beg to go to Raquels just to see you. I could no longer wake up every morning excited jus at the thought of seeing you.
A tear rolled down my cheek. I run away, into my bed room. I jump onto my bed and begin to bawl my eyes out. I text Raquel:
its over.....
She throws a fit. She begins telling me stuff like you never deserved me, or your a manwhore, or i can do better. Everything she says just makes me more sad. I loved you, and i never wanted to think bad of you. You were all i ever wanted and more.
October 14th, right when you first asked me out, i felt it was too good to be true. I felt it wouldnt last for you were just too perfect. Then i began to feel as if we were really ment to be together forever. Then you left me.
I loved you. Alot. I will never forget the words you had told me, i will never forget the letters you had written me. I will never forget anything you had ever told me about us being together forever, or that i was all you ever wanted.
"TBH,yhur my beat to my heart♥ the peanut to my butter♥ the nyan cat to the rainbow...lmfao xD I Love You :DD♥
Me:You wanna play army i can lay down and yhu can blow the fudge outta meh!xD
You:Suree
Me:Okay tonight at 7
(this was at Wof somehow i amazingly rememberd it)hah
lmao
I Love you my lover(: ♥"
