It's been two months of tour. As much as i wanted to stay on the tour bus with Louis at nights, i needed to go in with Niall. Every night i went into the hotel and slept with Niall in his room. Every night i had to convince myself to. It'd be over soon enough, and i'll be cuddled at home with Niall.
Every time i saw him the words repeated in my mind.
I don't love Louis, i love Niall.
But, how could i be so sure?
I couldn't, could I?
Seems like the more i said it, the less true it became. I have no idea how to fix this, and neither does he.
We were sitting in a conjoined hotel room while the boys were recording in the other. I was left with Harry.
"Harry?" i asked, curling towards him on the hotel bed.
"Hmm?" he mumbled, half asleep at two am.
"This is serious, wake up."
"Oh, i'm sorry love. What'd you need?"
"I need to know what i should do. And don't give me that 'it's up to you' crap because i've pondered for two months now and still can't decide and i feel horrible, and i just don't know anymore..." I trailed off.
"To be fucking honest, I think you should leave."
"Well that was quite unexpected.."
"No. I didn't mean that. Well, i did, but not in a mean way. I just think that Louis would be perkier and him and Niall wouldn't fight so much-"
We heard yelling from the other room.
"Speak of the devil..." Harry announced.
Louis was shoved into the room, and we began to hear the sound of Niall singing this time.
"Louis." i welcomed him.
"What are you guys up to? Another man, Becca? You cheating with Harry too?"
"Louis" Harry shook his head.
"No." i said. "he has every right to be salty... I did this. This is my fault. Everything is gonna crash and burn because of me..."
"Well as i was saying, It wouldn't crash and burn if you just up and left..." Harry carried on.
"No!" Louis screamed.
Harry shot up and looked him in the eyes.
"Louis. No matter how much you want Becca, you can't have her."
Louis' mouth opened to protest but Harry shut him up.
"She's either Niall's, or nobody's."
"Well-" I protested "i actually have no idea..."
Harry shook his head.
"Becca, you know you can't do this. I think you should just go home and wait for this to all blow over. Then if you decide you want Niall, you can have Niall." Harry said.
Louis was getting angrier by the second from Harry's decision.
"What if i don't want her to leave?"
He's like a little possessive baby...
I turned to him.
"What if i want to leave?"
He looked back at me with sad eyes.
"Why?" He whispered, tears forming in his eyes. "You know what, don't say it. i already know. I already know how i'm not good enough, and that this is too much for you, and how you love Niall. I know, okay. I know."
"Lou, i'm-"
"Don't say it. It just hurts. It'll always hurt. I don't think it'll ever go away..."
Harry turned to me, too tired to even realize where this was going.
The tears stung my eyes as i spoke:
"Louis, I'm leaving."
The End
Well, congrats if you made it to the end of my book, i know all these chapters sucked but im working on my writing skills and hopefully my other book (and one coming out soon) are gonna be sooooo much better. I also think that if you see updates for this book i'm probably going to go through and fix some of the really bad chapters with many plot holes but we'll see. Either way, i had no real ideas at the start of this book and i was never really happy with it, so i just thought maybe i'll write and ending and keep it up instead of just taking it down like the rest of them.
I hope you enjoyed this book, if you did and you wanted it, (which i doubt any of you do), and i ended up happy with this book, i'd write a sequel where Niall actually finds out the truth and shit goes down.
But thats enough of me rambling, i'm gonna give you this chapter now. Bye!
-Becca Xx
