ONLY IF YOU KNEW, what she went thru

Untold pt2

Aug 16, 2013

Loving someone can take you to unseen places and really fuck with your brain. It takes an emotional drive on your mind and body. It makes you think twice about life. But thinking ain't good enough. You have to take action but that was something i never did. I let love slip right thru my fingers. I fumbled it like the gators at a Super Bowl. I dropped the ball big time.
I trusted him before I knew him thats how I dropped it. Yap that's how I did it.

Putting my love into a man that didn't love me back. Lied to, betrayed and cheated on. That's what got me. I loved this man so much I didn't care what he did because of that trust I had for him. He cheated on me with god knows who and gave me an std causing me to never be able to have kids ever again, and that was something I had always dreamed of. My dream gone down the drain because I loved him and trusted him. Even though I'm cured, my womb remains damaged. No longer will I allow a man to deprive me of my womanhood and take away a dream of mine. No longer will I cry at night because of what he's done.

*Life is like a rocky table if one leg is unstable then the table won't balance and its going to began to wobble, without those pieces of life to hold that leg stable life is going to wobble and be off balance like that table.

*Picture a beautiful woman, made of gold and silk, finer then the eye can see but sweeter and most beautiful within the soul of she who holds a heart. Compare this woman to life and picture fantasies.

*The lights of a building, sparkles like a new star in the sky. Imagine your beautiful world like that but then imagine things going down hill, dreams falling apart and hearts melting like ice without a freezer. Like water without a filter and constant pollution of dead bodies. Like a Starbucks vanilla latte with water instead of ice, or if you prefer hot it's like using the sun to heat it instead if getting it warm already. Just imagine. Just sit back and imagine:) is it sweet? Or sweaty and weak? Just....

This man took everything from me. I still sit up at night and think about him. I find myself reminiscing on what we had. Somethings warm my heart and makes me smile, but when reality hits I turn to straw and the big bad wolf comes by and blow me down.Tears dear not fall, he's not worth that much. Once upon a time he use to be but no longer will he be...

Trying to figure out what's next on the story of the untold 2, nothing seems to come up. Nothing but the fun we had together. I'm laughing to myself because our relationship only consisted of sex. Yeah that makes me smile. It makes me smile because I realize I was his toy, his dummy, his joke, his game on the Xbox, his corner not his world. I was nothing to this man but you better believe to some man ill be his everything....EVERYTHING:)

I've had some problem, and nobody seemed to solve them.....