dan and phil // one shots

without the and // oneshot 3

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Sobbing, Dan Howell attempted to dry his tears with a torn handkerchief he gently removed from his funeral outfit.

He was still wearing it, even though Phil's funeral was two days ago.

He couldn't leave the grave. Couldn't leave what was left of his friend. He sat their, on the bench by the grave mark, whispering to Phil.

The Phandom was somber. The fighting and arguing stopped. The fan fiction stopped. The memes stopped. Everything somehow- wasn't ended- but paused. In honor of their idol; Phil Lester.

People would message Dan, expressing their sorrow and sympathy. He wouldn't read them. Didn't read them. He just sat their on the bench whispering. Crying. Sometimes the tears would stop, giving him a time to breath. Calm down. But then the wave of truth would hit him, and the tears would come again.

He always brought house plants. He splurged on house plants for the funeral. Phil was buried with his favorites, and the rest were planted alongside.

Dan didn't know how to live anymore. Days would pass, and he wasn't able to spent one of them without Phil. Without the voice from the other side of the wall. Talking to a camera, probably.

Who was he without Phil?
What is Dan without Phil!
Perhaps it's Dan and not Phil now.

Yeah, Dan and not Phil,

And Dan left the plants by the grave and dragged himself away.

Not without asking Phil for a miracle.

He asked him not to be dead.

He also asked him to be alive.

He lastly asked him to stay with him.

"Stay with me Phil. Be the Phil in the Dan and Phil. I can't be just Dan without Phil. Please. Please. Just one miracle. Don't be dead,"

Dan choked out the last word, slowly quietly turning his back to the tombstone, wondering if Phil heard him.

While he was at the gate, Phil stepped out from a shadow. He was the shadow. The shadow that will always follow Dan for the rest of his life. Watching him. Looking after. Carefully hidden in the darkness- but still... here. Wishing that Dan could hear him.

Oh Dan, I can hear you.

And I'll never leave your side.

I'll always be on the other side of the wall.

the and is still there I promise.

please remember
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//the note at the end; yeah obviously inspired by sherlock and doctor who, except sherlock didn't actually die (go ahead kill me now)
and btw unedited! sorry it's so short I might add more in some later time
and I'm thinking of changing my username ¿
also, because it's so short I might add on
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