Sex Ed [Michael Jackson]

13...Passing Notes

~Michael's POV~

It's been about a month and a half ever since the whole thing with Alex happened. Right after she left I filled up with so much guilt, regret, and anger. Guilt; because I felt bad about yelling at her and especially slapping her. Regret; because I wish I wasn't so stupid and could stop myself from hitting her. Anger; because I was angry at myself.

I lost the love of my life. I know that because, well, she's been ignoring my calls, ignoring me in classes, no matter wha I do, she ignores me.

Also, after we broke up, Brandon asked her out and now she's with him. Whenever I think back to the night she broke up with me, I cry. Not only because of what happened but because that was the first time she genuinely admitted to me that she loved me.

I walk into the cafeteria to grab my lunch and I see Alex and Brandon sitting at a table talking and smiling together. A pang of anger and jealous hits me hard as I keep looking over at them.

Alex sees me looking at them and I quickly turn my head to look away. I look at them through the corner of my eye and see them kissing. With tongue.

I feel tears come to my eyes and I quickly get my food so I can go to my office.

As soon as I close my office door I break down into tears and fall on the floor.

"Why am I so fucking stupid?" I whisper.

A knock on my door fills my ears and I wipe my tears away. I open the door and my face falls when I see Jermaine standing there.

I guess I was hoping it'd be Alex.

"Hey." I sigh.

"Hey, I decided to visit you for lunch." He says and I frown.

"You never do that." I say.

"I know, but there's nothing wrong with me wanting to spend time with my little brother, is there?" He asks.

"No. Um, okay. Let's go to the cafeteria." I say.

We go into the cafeteria and I hope and pray that Jermaine doesn't see Alex.

"Hey, isn't that Alex?" He asks, pointing at her and Brandon.

"Yeah." I sigh sadly.

"Who's that guy?" He asks and then they kiss.

"Her new boyfriend." I mumble.

"New boyfriend? When did you guys break up?!" Jermaine asks.

"The night of the reunion. I was pissed off at her and I hurt her." I sigh.

"Wait isn't it illegal for her to date him since he's a student here and she works here as your assistant?" He frowns, looking over at them as they hold hands.

"She doesn't actually work here, Jermaine." I sigh.

"What?!" He says a little too loudly and Alex looks over.

Her eyes widen when she sees Jermaine and she quickly looks back at Brandon.

"She's a student. I didn't want to tell mother and Joseph that. Please, promise you won't tell." I plead and he squints his eyes at me.

"You know you broke the law, right?" He says.

"Yes, I know. I fell in love with her though." I sigh.

"Okay. I won't tell Mother and Joseph on one condition." He says.

"What is it?" I ask.

"You pay for my food here." He says.

"That's it?" I chuckle.

"Yes." He nods.

"Done!" I say, pulling out my wallet.

After Jermaine leaves I go to the classroom since a class will be coming in right away.

The class arrives and it just happens to be Alex's class. She comes in and sits right beside Brandon. Great.

I feel like crying right now because of how close beside each other they are. They're holding hands!! She's gotta be doing this on purpose to get back at me!

My voice cracks as I teach from the tears building up but I clear my throat so it seems like I just have a cold or something.

"Anyway, please copy these notes on the board." I say and sit at my desk.

Alex and Brandon finish quickly and start exchanging little pieces of paper which I'm assuming are little love notes because she keeps giggling when she reads them.

I get up and walk over to their desk and put my hand out.

"No passing notes in class." I say and Brandon nods, placing his in my hand.

I turn to Alex and swallow the lump in my throat then ask her to give me hers. She shakes her head.

"Come on, Miss Kingston. I'm the teacher, you're the student so you need to do what I say!" I say and the whole class chuckles.

She rolls her eyes and passes them to me.

"Thank you." I say as she rolls her eye again.

I take them back to my desk and start reading them.

First I read one that's in Alex's writing. It's says "Last night was fun. ;)". His reply; "Yes it was amazing. You're freaky just like I expected ;) ;)". Her reply; "You were the best I've ever had. ;)". His reply; "aw same, I love you baby girl.<3". Her reply; "I love you more, sexy ;) <3".

Tears threaten to fall as I throw the note out and sigh.

What am I gonna do without her?