5 Quad Fanfic

All hope is gone

When Aprll got me into the bus she sat me down and she sat right next to me trying to calm me down. I couldnt stop crying, I never thought, my role model, my inspiration, my number one supporter, my own mother would die.

I thought back to the call and she said that it was a drunk driver. I had finally been able to stop crying... for now. I kept thinking... were am I going to live? Whos goina he there when I need them the most? Then I thought... my Brother will be there, along with my little Zachary.

Everyone else got onto the bus and I was in sweatpants and a sweater with my hair up in a messy bun. Everyone came and sat around me when Zach sat right beside me and said

"Im sorry I didnt say anything"

I put my head on his shoulder

"Its alright I know your in shock and so is everyone else and right now I feel so bad for not dancing for yall I ruined the whole show" I said as I stood up and went outside on the freezing cold

Zach, Nick, and Dylan followed out.

"IVE LOST ALL HOPE BECAUSE OF A FUCKING IDIOT, KILLED MY MOM" I screamed while bursting out to tears

"Kayla dont..." Nick said getting cut off

"SHUT THE FUCK UP NICK YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE. I DONT KNOW WHOS IM GOING TO LIVE WITH, WHOS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF ME, I DONT KNOW AND YOU ALSO DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO LET DOWN ALL OF THOSE PEOPLE BECAUSE OF ME NOT BEING ABLE TO STAY STRONG" I screamed

"Please Kayla calm down" Zach said as he tries grabbing my waist.

"NO, NO DONT TOUCH ME DONT DO ANYTHING, I WILL NOT CALM DOWN"I screamed and started running... I didnt know were I was going but I was running.

"KAYLA PLEASE STOP" I heard behind me

I started running faster when I had finally lost them and I stopped running and I was walking under a bridge

I couldnt stop crying, I didnt have my phone, I only had socks and slides on and it was about 35 degrees outside. I was lost

I had finally stopped at this convieniant store and looked around when I saw a had knife. I went and got it and without anyone looking and went to the bathroom.

I took out the knife and said

"One for letting dowm your supporters, one for not forcing your mom to go on tour, one for being a idiot, and one last big one for letting down my brothers"

I put the knife down, cleaned up blood, and put my shirt down (I did it on my stomach)

I had went back outside still balling my eyes out and feeling very dizzy. I just realized I havent eaten today, I skipped lunch with the boys to go do a photoshoot. I kept walking and then finally..... I heard a honk and turned around and saw Zach, Nick, and Rudan getting out of the car.

I started running but it was too late, Rudan grabbed me but I managed to loosen up until both Nick and Zach grabbed me

I went and pushed uo against Zach and started saying

"Im so sorry for what I did, Im so sorry for screaming at you guys, Im sorry" I said while still crying

"Shhhh its alright its alright" Zach said as we rocked back and forth

He realized how cold I was so he picked me up and put me in the car and when we got back to the bus I got up in there saw everyone.... and blacked out