I thought I agreed with you.
I thought we'd fallen out of love.
I tried to flirting with him. It was all just to make you jealous. Why do you think I told you about it? You said you didn't care. And I realised I did. I can't live without you. How can I? You said we were forever I planned my future on you. I only want you. Now what future do I have. I wasn't supposed to have to introduce my kids to you as "Uncle" you were supposed to be there as much as I was. I don't want to one day have to introduce my babies to you. I wanted them to be as much you as I I never planned for a future until you. You made me believe I could survive. I had a future with you, I had life and hope and love. But now what? I'm lost again. Do you have a future? Of course you do! Do I? Maybe not anymore... I want you back. Please. Don't leave me. I can't be alone. You're the love of my life and my best friend. I have you everything and you've kept it. I have no heart, no soul, no love, no spirit. It's all yours now. You once told me I'm never allowed to let you go. Well you made me break that promise. You should never have initiated a conversation about our relationship when I was high on medication. I was paranoid and loopy! For fucks sake you knew that! You were supposed to keep me safe. I kept you safe and I still am. But you stripped me of everything and threw me in the lions pit. How do I put back together a broken heart when you still have it all in the palm of your hand?
