Who and When?

What's Wrong here?

"Hello, I don't believe we've met. So what are your names or shall I provide you both names of my own?"

I told her that there was no need for that. Thinking to myself, that I would have liked to have had a pet name from her but ,oh well. She introduced herself as Reign Sundara. To show our manners we introduced ourselves also.

Reign apparently liked my name along with my outfit, for which she paid me a few compliments towards and I repaying her with compliments of my own towards her and her ensemble. Knowing that I liked Reign, Jazmine decided to go use the facilities. She excused herself and let us be. For the longest time I had seen a few other women, but never felt the way I do for Reign as I did when with the others.

There was nothing I would have liked more than to confess my true feelings for her, but we hardly knew each other so I kept my feelings to myself. We talked about many different things before Jazmine came back. When she arrived to the table after "powdering her nose", she sat next to me and just listened in on our conversation and occasionally put in her two cents; though mostly just let us talk.

I found out so much about her; everything that I learned from what she told us brought Reign closer to me. She was born into a home that was extremely strict. She wanted to become an actress but her parents greatly disapproved so they forced her to be a scholar and to become protégée for the piano. Saying with a hint of resentment in her voice, "I would study for hours on end to be the daughter my parents wanted, and in doing so I eventually lost the passion to become an actress." She also told us that playing the piano was the only way she had to express herself so it came easily to her as her parents had wished even though they didn't know the truth behind her talent. She shared that when she reached the age of where she could be wed, she fled to a town in which a distant aunt had lived in. According to her, she only saw that relative once a year for her mother did not approve of her sister and thought that her ways would influence her children and teach them to do things that would dishonor the family name. She didn't go into detail about that matter since she felt it was to personal. Being the understanding people we were, Jazmine and I told her that it was alright and that we both respected her decision.

Then she asked about us and what our life was like when we were younger. Jazmine started our story off saying that we have been friends for a long time and that we have known each other since 3rd grade. We spent almost every day together and in doing that our parents also became good friends. Then I told her that when my parents got into the car accident and both of them died because of it. After having said that, Reign became very sympathetic towards me.

Saying that she was sorry for my loss and then told me that she never had experienced such a great loss. She said that her grandparents passed when she was in high school but only of natural causes and wasn't as devastating to her as it was to her parents only because she didn't have a very strong connection with them. I tried to seem sympathetic but the closest I got was sounding sarcastic. Of course I apologized for my tone then explained that after my parents deaths I wasn't the same and Jazmine confirmed that I did infact change.

Then I went on saying that I was put into multiple foster homes and a few of them didn't quite approve me and my behavior but no matter where I went I always found a way to keep in touch with Jazmine. As I said that Jazmine looked at me and smiled. Returning the smile I kept on. She asked why there was a few foster homes that disapproved of me but to let her know "my secret" I wasn't very comfortable telling her. She said that it was alright and that she wouldn't bring up the subject again. There was a sense of awkwardness that even the most coldest of people would have been able to feel after that was said.

Attempting to break the silence and awkwardness Reign spoke up and said, "Soo...is anyone a bit peckish?'

After remembering that I didn't eat breakfast or lunch I reply," Actually I am a little bit hungry now that you bring up the topic."

Jazmine agrees that she's also hungry. Obviously being the hostess of such an extravagant party has its perks. All Reign had to do was snap her fingers three times and hundreds of servants came flooding into the room holding plates piled high with food. The crowd of people 'oooed' and 'aahhed' at the variety of different foods from what seemed to be a combination of local cuisine and foreign cuisine. To think, I made the mistake of having the thought that this ball could not get any better than this happens. But nothing could have prepared me for what happened next; not mentally nor physically.

Reign came over to me holding a large plate of all sorts of foods. My stomach growled at the sight and smells of the assortments of foods, from here and places far from here. All of the sudden my mouth started to water and as if she could read my mind she did something so out of the blue. She selected a piece of fruit and held it up to me for what seemed she wanted me to eat from her hand. She probably was able to tell that I was confused on what was going on so she just got my hand and placed the fruit in my palm. She gave me a big smile and told me to try it. So I did, it was delicious. I don't know how she knew or if she just figured that I liked my fruit with chili powder and lime.

Jazmine had walked up to us and witnessed the entire scene, seeing her face I wasn't sure if she was confused or if she was upset. If she was confused it might have been because of her knowing that my feelings for Reign were strong, even if it has been three hours now that I have known her. And if she was upset it would be because of how innocent I was being when Reign offered to feed me from her hand. She knows me better than anyone in my life so she also knows that I have never had such strong feelings for another. Her knowledge of that fact shows that she is willing to help me achieve someone to love and to have someone to love me in return or to gain a friendship that would have a mutual relationship of understanding, as what Jazmine and I have already.

"What the hell was that?! I thought you liked her, I thought you liked her more than any woman you've dated. I thought...I thought what's wrong here? With this, you have more trust and anxiety issues then I thought."

"Yeah so, don't need to go bring it up. You of all people should know that I'm sensitive when it comes to that topic. Especially when you, my best friend, no, my sister to bring up that subject. You are the only person that I know of that has the ability to make me feel emotions when no one or any other physical object has the power to, as normal people say, to feel. Most emotions to are strange but few are familiar. I have the capacity to act like I possess the emotions that are strange to me. I once knew what it felt like to cry, to feel...normal and not like a freak of nature."

Hurt, I ran off the restroom to have a bit of solitude. Not wanting to have any human contact for a few minutes I locked myself in. Since I hadn't cried in over 13 years I just swelled up in anger as the only thing I knew how to do. I was truly angry, at Jazmine and at myself. I felt as if I was going to lash out at any moment now, but I hoped that I didn't because whenever I do it always ends in a disaster leaving me to feel disappointed at myself.