Mistakes

Mistake Part 1

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It was only two days until you and Dean's one year anniversary and you are completely elated. But there had been a sudden change in Dean's attitude towards you. He used to do almost everything with you like hunting, go on supply runs, and your favorite, watching movies together on the couch until you both passed out. Dean also would look at you with his big green eyes that lit up whenever you were together. But something has changed and he looks at you the way he looks at his little brother Sammy. He even sometimes acted like you were just another one of his acquaintances. It tore your heart apart especially when he barley even kissed you or say "I love you."

You were worried that you would end up having to shut everyone out like you did after your ex cheated on you.

You, Dean, and Sam were doing research in the library on a possible case when Dean got one of the many calls that day.

"Really, Dean, another call?" Sam said in suspicion.

"Sorry but I have to take this." Dean exclaimed as he hurriedly walked down the bunker hallway to our room.

"Has he seemed a bit off lately?" Sam asked as you were giving an annoyed face.

"I don't know what is up with him. First it is all the calls, then it is the fact that he disappears to nowhere and he is becoming more distant from me." You said as you realized what you needed to do.

"I'm sure he is just making plans for your one year anniversary," Sam said reassuringly.

"Right. Since when is Dean ever the romantic type?" You said as you grew to worry the worst.

Dean walked back in with his coat and keys, " I have to go help an old friend with something and I probably won't be back till tomorrow," Dean said even though you knew he was lying.

"Ok, me and Y/N will figure out if these murders are our thing and get some supplies," Sam said not looking away from his computer screen.

You waited a few moments for Dean to make it to the garage and that's when you rushed to get your coat and your gun before going after him.

"Were are you off to?" Sam said with his usual worried look because you looked like you were off on a hunt.

Knowing that you couldn't lie to Sam without him trying to yank the truth out of you and you didn't have time for any arguing so you just explained,"I am going to follow Dean because I have this bad feeling."

"Why?" Sam asked confused,"He is just helping out one of his old friends. I'm sure it's nothing."

"I know I just want to make sure and I will come right back" you shouted already headed to the garage.

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You had been driving for an hour following Dean keeping a four car length between you when you arrived at this bar. A few minutes later a girl in a pink tank top, white booty shorts, and heels came out and got in the '67 impala. Your stomach dropped and a knot was in your throat as you held back your tears. Maybe it wasn't what it looked like. So you followed the old classic muscle car once more.

You followed Dean to this shady motel. You watched in horror as Dean was all over the skank calling her "baby."

You got out as soon as they went into the motel room. You were frozen in shock. Tears slipped down your eyes as you grabbed your wallet and took the picture of you and Dean you loved so much because it was a picture Sam took when the two of you weren't looking while you laughed your heads off. The picture was in your hands and you only had enough strength to put the picture on Dean's precious car and put two bullet holes in the picture as well as the hood of the car.

After you got in the car and screeched off watching as Dean ran out screaming, "Son of a Bitch," as he examined that his car was damaged only to realize that it was the picture of you and him.

"Oh no, Y/N!!" Dean yelled as he watched you drive away.

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As soon as you got to the bunker and got through the door your emotions took off.

"Y/N!?" Sam asked as he ran up to you right as your legs gave out falling into Sam's caring arms."Y/N, what happened?"

"H-how c-could h-he d-do th-this to me?" you managed to let out in between sobs."D-dean d-doesn't love me any-more."

Sam was afraid and didn't know quite what to do because he has never seen you like this even when tortured by monsters you never cried. So Sam picked you up bridal style and wen't to the room that you and Dean shared. He laid you down ever so gently afraid he might hurt you in this fragile state.

"It'll be ok, Y/N," he said holding you rubbing your back as you let out all the feeling you had for Dean. You started to calm down and you could feel yourself becoming numb because you weren't going to let anyone hurt you again.

Sam and you had been talking for a while when the bunker door swung open and you could here Dean yell,"Y/N! Y/N! Please, Baby, I need to explain!"

"Stay right here." Sam said so calmly as he shut the bedroom door behind him.

"Sam, were is Y/N? I need to talk to her." Dean said now in the library.

"You know what, Dean, you have some nerve to pull something like that! Y/N loved you with everything she had and you know how hard that was for her to do especially after her ex! The five years that we have known her and the four it took for you to earn her trust you managed to destroy it within a couple of days!" Sam shouted angrily at his brother hoping to knock some sense into him.

"I-i didn't mean-" Dean started but got cut off by Sam.

"You didn't mean what, Dean!? You didn't mean to hurt her in ways that even you can't fix! Did you really think that you wouldn't get caught!?"

"Sam-"

"No, Dean, you said you would never hurt her, that you would protect her! Dean, I can't even imagine how you could do this, especially since Y/N was still by your side no matter what, and everything you two had been through!"

"I-i'm sorry-" Dean wispered as reality kicked in and he noticed he screwed up and will never be able to fix it and tears began to well up in his eyes.

"Sorry, Dean? Sorry is not going to cut it and you shouldn't be apologizing to me." Sam said as he couldn't believe Dean did this, it was a new low even for him.

While Sam lectured Dean downstairs, you started to pack a bag and writing a letter to Sam and Dean. You had a plan that was fairly risky.

You called Cas, hoping he would respond. With a gust of wind Cas stood in front of you with a confused look.

"Y/N, what is going on? Why is Sam yelling at Dean?"

You close your eyes and took a deep breath holding back the pain behind your puffy red eyes.

"I need you to erase my memory."

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