Heart Of Steel

Heart 1

Years Ago~

“Now Lou gimm—“But mum I want them now pleaseeee.” Louis whined, tugging at the bottom of his mums skirt. Jay gave a sigh but continued to look for her keys in her purse, “Now boo what did I tell you earlier.” she tsks. Louis pouts and crosses his arms over his chest, “If I behave and look after Lottie you'd be bring me back Twizzlers.” he recites. Jay looks down at Louis with raised eyebrows, not liking the tone her son was having.

Finally finding her keys she called for Fizz to come downstairs. Louis followed his mum to the door as his little sister came running behind them. He whined again, “How come she get's to goooo!!!” Louis was not liking this at all, it was totally unfair. Jay sighed before turning to Louis again, “I have to get her some new shoes.” she said.

Louis opens his mouth to speak again but Jay cuts him, “Louis.” she starts, Louis huffs, “Alright....jeez.”

Jay can't help but chuckle at her son, the boy was so damn stubborn, “Besides didn't daddy want your help with his carvings.” she says, and that just makes Louis even more upset. Because that was not his father, his real dad is somewhere else in London. Louis might've been eight when there parents split up, but he new exactly what was happening. He watched his dad pack all his stuff, get in his car and didn't look back. Two years later his mum re-married to Vince, and Louis didn't like him, not one bit.

The man always smelled of cigarettes and beers, Louis wondered why his mum even found the man attractive. Louis knew his mum was lonely, could tell by the look in her eyes. However he was hoping that his mum would've picked someone...less sleazy looking.

“Vince is not my dad, and no I won't help him with his stupid carvings.” Louis grumbled under his breath.

Jay knew where this was going, when she married she could tell that Louis wasn't to fond of Vince. She was hoping after he moved in and got comfortable that things would settle down between them. However Louis doesn't want to even be in the same room as the man, let alone live with him. She gives another sigh and brings Louis into a hug.

“Listen, I know you miss your father and that things are a bit different now.” Jay tries to sympathize, “But he's trying Louis and you gotta try to.” She says softly, backing up to push Louis' fringe out of his face. The boy sighed before nodding his head, “Alright.” he mutters. Jay gave him a smile and kissed his forehead.

“I'll be back soon alright Boo, love you.” she says, grabbing her purse. Louis only frowns, muttering a whatever under his breath.

Jay shook her head, promising herself to have nice long chat with her son, when she gets back.

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“It's your fault!!!!”

“You greedy little shit!!!”

Louis crawled into his closet trying to get away from Vince's yelling. “L....Lou m'scared.” Lottie says, starting to cry

Louis tried to stop his own tears from falling, and calm his sister down. He hugged her to his chest and covered her ears so that she doesn't hear the nasty words coming out of Vinces' mouth. Times like these he wished his mum was here, she always knew how to calm any kind of situation down. Louis was never good with his sisters crying, never knowing what to say and right now was no different.

“Fucking fag, get your ass out here now!!!”

“I'll make you pay you little shit I swear!!”

Lottie started to cry harder and by now Louis was crying to, because he knew it was. He knew it was his fault that....that....

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“Lou!”

Louieeee!”

“Louis!”

Louis jerked awake to see his thirteen year old sister staring down at him. He rubbed his eyes a bit took look at her, “S'wrong.” he said noticing her tear-stained cheeks. Louis moved over like he always does, so that Lottie could clime in with him. She gripped the front of his shirt, “Had a bad dream, and Vince has one those hookers in his room.” she mumbled. Louis nodded in understanding, “Your not the only one.” Louis answered.

Lottie turned her face up, “Was it about mum?” she asked. Louis' gaze went from her to the ceiling, as he let out a long sigh.

“Yeah.” Louis says, not really wanting to talk about it. Lottie knew that his brother has these dreams almost every night. She knows because sometimes when Louis starts to cry in his sleep, she'll be the one to comfort him.

“What was your dream about?” Louis changes the subject. Lottie frowned, turning her face into the pillow.

Louis turned to hug her, “Bout mum to?” he whispers.

“Yeah.”

This makes Louis painfully aware that that he is the cause of his little sisters dreams. He's the reason why she wakes up sometimes in the middle of the night screaming for her mum. Or sometimes she'll be sitting in Fizz's room crying, and holding her sisters favorite stuff animal to her chest. It's also his fault that Vince is being more than ass than when he first met him.

It's all his fault, all because he wanted a pack of Twizzlers.

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