Love Knows No Gender or Other... Lol

Sickness

The sickness had set in a week after being away. My body was a nervous wreck jumpy and shaky. The physical symptoms scared my grandma the most; fever, coughing, vomiting, complaints of chest pain, and all the works that felt like the flu. She had one of the men that work for her carry me to bed. From there she began to love me back to good health. I finally found Lance's real letter in the bottom of my pillow case. It was beautiful an it will be one of my most treasured possessions here. I miss him I know that is why all this sick crap came from my heart and brain are at war trying to understand what they need to do make us better. It is just not working to their advantage. The vomiting has finally stopped, but I still haven't been able to eat in this whole week, Mimzy keeps bringing food I just can't make myself eat. I wonder how he is doing in school he was supposed to start his advanced classes. Lance is so smart, I am too when I can keep out of trouble that is. I'm just not a people person they get on my nervous to easy. Lance was always my rock in school. I avoided trouble a lot cause he was there. Now I'll probably not make it out alive plus dad trying to pull a fast one is sending me to public school. May be he wants me to die... Wow that's a harsh statement, but it feels like that is what he wants from me.. Maybe a persons love was too much for me to ask for.

Mimzy says I start school once I start eating again. I know she worries about me so I did finally start eating I'd been here almost two weeks though. So school Monday morning for me. I'm sure it will be difficult. My temper will probably get me in trouble day one, but I'm hell bent on trying to keep this together for Lance.