Struggling( E.C & L.T)

Distance

I walk the busy streets listening to Taylor Swift's 'Breathe', its funny how a song can describe everything about your life. Me and Lou haven't been talking much lately and its killing me. I can't be without him, he may have cheated but that doesn't change how I feel about him. I would always be hopelessly in love with him. I guess its gonna hurt, and I'm probably gonna cry but eventually I heal.

I reach the studio where the boys are and go to the recording studio. I couldn't help but cry as I listen to their song 'Diana', its so powerful. Its a song that many girls can relate to. I watch as Lou sings and I smile a little, his voice is the most angelic sound I've heard and it always gives me feelings I can't explain. He watched me as the tears fell and I could see the worry. As soon as they were done he came over to me and pulled me close. "Honey, whats wrong? Why are you crying?" I didn't answer I just cried in his arms, enjoying the fact that we were together. "Elly, please talk to me." The boys silently watched as Lou wiped my tears away, I smiled a little. "That song is just so beautiful, it makes me cry. Especially when you sing it." The boys chuckled along with Louis. The boy then left me and Louis to talk, "hey babe, are you feeling alright lately? I've noticed you've been getting sick." I handed him my purse giving him the hint to look through it, I could tell he found what I wanted him to find. He pulled out the positive pregnancy test and smiled at me. "You're pregnant." He stated and I nodded, he laughed and hugged me tightly! He rested his hand on my stomach and looked at me with passion and love, "this is great, honey."

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9 months later

 I took him inside to fine everyone arguing about who gets to hold the sign. What a great welcome. I sighed and took little Mason Carter Tomlinson too his room. He had blue eyes and brown curly hair and my button noes. But you could tell he was his fathers child.

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Later that night when Louis was asleep and I wasn't I decided to give Mason a proper welcome home. "This the living room, yeah,this is where you're gonna grow up.This our home." I then went to the big board filled with pictures of our family. "And this is your crazy family, there Liam, Harry, you know what you'll meet them all later." I then heard a rough voice, "babe what are you doing?" He wrapped his arms around my waist. "Just giving Mason a proper welcome home." I titled my head to meet his eyes and smile. I looked down at my little boy and back at the house. "Welcome home Mason." We finally went to bed but with not much success with Mason's crying eventually we just let him sleep with us. Eventually he slept.

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When I woke up I saw little Mason and Louis cuddling up. He had him cuddled up close to him and Mason held on to Louis' finger. I took a picture and put it on twitter.

@Louis_Tomlinson Mason and his daddy aren't they adorable? First day home.

I picked up Mason and fed him. Finally we got our own house, the boys were just visiting. I left a little note to Louis saying we had to go shopping. I dressed the baby in a green onesie that said 'I'm cuter than you' and a black beanie. I took his binky and put it in his mouth. I loaded him in the car seat and I drove off.

As were were about to enter the store cameras were everywhere. I put a blanket around Mason and covered his face so the light doesn't hurt him. "You ready for this baby?" I asked him and walked with my head down.

Eleanor, Eleanor over here?

Let us see Mason!

Is Mason someone else's baby?

That was outrageous! Of course it was Louis' baby. I set him in the cart in his car seat. Many pictures were taken but soon me and Mason could take our own little walk even though the grocery was still in the car. Basically it was just candy anyway. "Well aren't we fancy? I'm in sweats and a hoodie and your more fancy than me. That's not right." I can't believe my baby was born only a couple days ago, November seventh. Wow. He started to cry just a bit, he whimpered. I felt like someone was following me. I stopped and turned around to find nothing. I turn my attention back to him. I still felt like someone was following me so I went to the car and drove off.

I opened the house setting the bag on the counter and Louis came running in sock skating. He grabbed Mason and skated with him. He let out a tiny giggle that turned into fits of laughter. "Definitely his fathers child." I said causing them to both give me blank stares. "We aren't that bad." Louis protested, I kissed his lips getting chocolate on his lips. "Mmm, come back your lips taste great." He kissed me longer this time, when I tried to pull away he used his free hand to keep me there. Damn his strong ass. Little Mason then used his hands and started to put his hand between our lips finally getting us to separate. "Thanks baby, I thought your daddy was gonna deprive me of oxygen." He giggled and I went to make breakfast, I saw Louis set the baby in his bassinet out of the corner of my eye. I then directed my attention to the breakfast to have his arms wrap around my waist. He had his head laid on my shoulder, "whatcha doing?' I laughed as he kissed my neck, "Louis I'm cooking not now, and the baby is in the room." The front door opened to reveal the boys, Liam came running over an separated us. "I cannot be an uncle again, its to soon." Louis chuckled and Harry picked up the baby and immediately held him far away. "Eleanor, he's stinky!" "I call it!" Louis shouted, still strange. He took Mason and went to the nursery to change his diaper. We all looked amused as the boys talked and Sofia joined me in the kitchen. "El whats it like having a baby?" I smiled, "Its hard work, even if I've only been home a day. But I wouldn't trade it for anything. So when are you and Liam gonna have a baby?" She sighed, "I mean were young, I want one but I'm waiting for marriage." "So you've never done it before?" she nodded, "I'm proud of you, I only lasted a year with Louis, I eventually gave in." She smirked, "So whats he like in bed?" I was stunned I slapped her arm. "That is private!" I then whispered in her ear, "He's better than Liam." I looked at her face full of shock and now all attention was on us. I started to laugh, "You actually thought I slept with Liam, OH MY GOD! Your face was priceless." Breakfast was done and Louis came out with my baby. I grabbed him and I gave him a bear hug well he's a baby so it was a light one. I set him in my arms and got a bottle filled with our breakfast. "Is that?" Louis pointed to the bottle, "Yes it is blended food, if he's gonna be my child he's gonna learn how I did." He shook his head and took the bottle and gave me one with only milk. "Hey! that defeats the whole fun!" "I know but my baby isn't going to have acne at ten years old because his mother fed him blended bacon for breakfast." I pouted but fed Mason anyway. 

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I had led everyone out except Harry he went to say goodbye, I went upstairs and watched him. "Goodnight Mason, hopefully I'll be able to find Darcy and you two can be the best of friends and play paint ball and rocket-ship. Stay young, it doesn't last forever."  He kissed his forehead and put him in the cot. "That was sweet, who's Darcy?" He shook his head and kissed my cheek, "Goodnight Eleanor." Strange. I went to the room and cuddled up next to Louis. He wrapped his arm around me pulling me just a bit closer. I nuzzled into his chest as it smelled of baby and sweet flowers. "Sweet dreams El, I love you."

I love you too. Even though you have no idea how much. I thought in my brain before drifting to sleep.

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Well, that was.....cute sorry have a little writers block.

picture of side is Mason Carter Tomlinson! Isn't he adorable in black and white? colored photo will be soon

Story Of My Life- One Direction