The Meaning Of Love. True Love.

Her

"I know right! Like it was like a massive circus. But it was so good! We need to go next year!" Sabrina hears her next door neighbours arrive home. They've just been to a festival somewhere in Carlton. At least they're having fun. They're always going to different places. Bitches. She then opens up her laptop and browses through MPA. Pics of Binge Haul. Hmmm. Let's see if HereComesMimi has posted any more of her cuisines. Yes! She has! It takes about half an hour for Sabrina to finish reading through the thread before getting up and getting a large cup of coffee.

The phone rings. "Hello, who's speaking?" Sabrina answers, clearly knowing that it's her mother.

"Hey Sabrina, it's me. I might be a bit later as I am going out for coffee with Kelly from the Gym. So have an apple if you're hungry. I'll be home at about 1:00 or 1:30. Ok? Bye!" The phone hangs up. Yay! More free time for me! What to do? Anything but homework, cause as everyone knows, I am the most laziest person ever! Oh, whatever! Sabrina then goes back to her room and searches YouTube for a YouTube mix of Spanish music. Might listen to some Maluma or something. He's got good music. Dammit! I have a SAC tomorrow! Shit! What the hell! I hate Art! Nope, English, you're shit. And as for History, well you can fucking die. I'm failing anyway. Nah, I'm listening to Barei. She's got great music.

"You gotta stay alive
doing right...
it's not that easy when you hurt inside...
you gotta try to find the light
within your heart
and play your card.

You gotta throw the dice
close your eyes...
it's not that easy trying to turn the tide...
Too many fools arriving high...
It's time to mend this human crime."

Sabrina softly sings the lyrics of the song along with Barei. I wonder what this song is about. It's really good. Shit. Italian. Dammit. My oral is due next week! What the hell! Can anything else go wrong!? What is my life?

Ding! Sabrina's phone lightens up as she receives a new Facebook message from Elizabeth. 

"Hey Sabrina! I'm good thanks! I'm going over to Ashley's house for a sleepover today! So how are you?"

I'm great! Yup. My life is great! Like, why else would I be so enthusiastic and happy! And great! Glad that you've kept in contact with Ashley. Glad that she decided to choose you over me. Like EVERYONE decides to leave me behind. But whatever. Who cares. I have my music. So all of you can go and fuck yourselves! Instead, Sabrina decides to ignore the message and leans back in her chair. "Urgh. Why? I have no idea. Of course I have no idea. That's just who I am." She shakes her head before taking a sip of her coffee.

Katy Perry's song 'Rise' comes on in Sabrina's playlist. Yes! I love this song! Sabrina turns her volume up to 100% and closes her eyes whilst she listens to the lyrics of the song.

"I won't just survive
Oh, you will see me thrive
Can't write my story
I'm beyond the archetype

I won't just conform
No matter how you shake my core
'Cause my roots they run deep, oh

Oh, ye of so little faith
Don't doubt it, don't doubt it
Victory is in my veins
I know it, I know it
And I will not negotiate
I'll fight it, I'll fight it
I will transform"

I guess I have to do my Art folio. Ah! But I don't want to! I fucking hate Art! What the hell! All people refer to me is 'The Artist'. But no! I want to be more than that! Why can't I be smart? Intelligent? Pretty? Skinny? Beautiful? Sporty? Fashionable? Talented? Everyone else is. I'm not. All I do is copy things. That's NOT an artist. An artist creates. I don't create. I destroy. I ruin. That's why I hate Art. I can't create. I just copy. I'm a copycat. Fuck that shit! Sabrina then slaps her head with the palm of her hand. "You know what, I'm going to put Katy Perry on repeat and I'm going to sleep for an hour. Sabrina then puts the alarm on her phone and tries to go to sleep, but finds it very difficult.

"Ma, why can't I go to sleep? Oh yeah, it's the coffee isn't it? Shit. Fuck you coffee." Sabrina then gets up and sits back in her chair and stares at the pile of her homework on her desk. Kill me now.

Ding! Another message on her phone. Alexandra! No! Not you! Go away! Don't ruin my perfectly peaceful day! Urgh! What does it take to have peace in this world!? Oh which reminds me, Religion SAC tomorrow! YAY!!

"Hi Sabrina. Christie called me today. Just to answer your questions, I'm really busy with dancing. That's all. I have a performance in a week. We have lots of practice lessons. So yeah. That's it. Ok. Bye." Great. Well that wasn't so bad. Was it? Well, it did sound like a pissed off message. Oh well. Doesn't matter. I'm tired. I need sleep! Might get some milk.

Sabrina slowly gets out of her chair and walks to the fridge and gets some milk out. Where's the sugar? I need it to be sweet. She pours herself a large glass of milk and puts a teaspoon of sugar in it. Should I, or should I not get something to eat? That is the final question. Sabrina drinks her milky drink before going back to her room. 'Rise' is still playing on repeat. Sabrina sits on the edge of her bed. One of her dogs, Jayden, walks in and jumps on her bed. Sabrina kisses her on the head and pats her. "Ah, you're a good friend Jayden. You and music. That's all I need isn't it? I don't need anything or anyone else. Maybe I do? Hmm." Jayden just licks Sabrina's face before settling down on her bed and sleeping. Thanks for taking up my bed you fluffy headed thing.

Ding! "Urgh! What now! I don't fucking care what you have to say! Unless it's one of my favourite singers, then fuck off!" Sabrina walks over to check her phone. Another message from Elizabeth. Great. What do you want? Sabrina hisses her thoughts in her head.

"Oh, did I tell you, Ashley's coming to your school as of tomorrow. I know, it's sort of almost halfway through Term 1, but she wanted to change school, so she chose yours. Not because you're there. She didn't know you went there. But because it offers Physics and it will allow her to do 2 Maths based subjects. Just thought you would like to know."

Ashley? Coming to MY school? Since when? We haven't spoken in over six fucking years! What the fuck! What am I going to say to her? 'Oh hey Ashley, remember me?' NO! I don't think so! Nuh-uh. Not happening. Bitch please. I have much better things to do. She was the one that totally neglected our so called friendship anyway. I was the one who tried to keep in contact with her and she IGNORED ME! I mean. What the FUCK! So much for friendship. Pff. No. Sabrina stamps her foot loudly on the floor, waking Jayden up. "Oh, sorry Jayden. I'm just angry as usual. That's the only thing I'm good at. Is being angry. You go to sleep." Jayden just stares at Sabrina before putting her head back down to sleep.

"This is no mistake, no accident
When you think the final nail is in
Think again
Don't be surprised
I will still rise"

Thanks Katy. Such true lyrics. Well, this is shit. Now, how am I supposed to do my school work when SHE is at my school, potentially going to be in MY English class!? Like fuck you! No. Go away. Go and stay with Elizabeth and do all your stupid immature girly shit. You had your chance. You destroyed it. You destroyed me. And I'm not coming back. Don't think I'm going to be nice to you. No. No more nice girl. I have changed. I have anger. I have lots of anger. And you will see lots of it. So stay away from me. Or I WILL bite. I will rise like a Phoenix like Conchita sings. I'm not falling for your foolish nana. No. I will not break for you. Like why should I care now? You've never cared! You never did! And you never will! So why should I? Why? And don't try and suck up to me. I will literally just get up and leave. I will leave you standing there, just like you left me.