I sit at the edge, staring down. Just one jump...it would take the pain away. The only thing that could possibly take the pain away. I'm done thinking that something better could come along, I am done thinking that something or someone could take away this pain I feel inside. Because the people I allow into my life, the people I have the most hope for...they hurt me even more. My heart is probably more scarred then my wrist are. So many people have hurt me...Why was I every ones target? The one person...I thought loved, well he hurt me the worst.
I walked the halls, so excited to see him. I didn't care about the kids who passed me, the laughs or the mean words that were directed toward me like. She liked me...I can't believe Ashley liked me. She's so beautiful. I swear us getting assigned to work on a project together was probably the best thing that has happened to me in a while. I found her table and walked up to her with confidence.
"Hi Ashley" She didn't look at me, didn't even acknowledge I was there. So I repeated myself.
"Uhg, why are you talking to me loser?" My heart felt as if it was going to burst. Why was she being mean to me I thought she liked me?
"Oh...Uhm I just I thought-
"You thought wrong, now leave me alone freak" I gave her a look of disgust as I walked away. This girl, she used me. She probably only wanted me to do the project for her. I felt my phone go off in my pocket. It was Ashley. Part of me didn't want to open the text, but something told me to...And I wish i hadn't.
From Ashley:
Hi Zayn...Sorry about that. I really like u seriously i do, but I can't be seen with you, becuz ur...u and well i'm me...we're 2 different people and i just can't risk my reputation. We could be a secret couple...
I clenched my phone in my fist. I'd rather have her hate me, than be embarrassed of me. Before I could stop myself; I let my anger get the better of me, and my phone was crashing into the locker. Could anything go right in my life? I just want to get home, There are some sleeping pills with my name on it.
So one jump, that's all it would take for this pain to go away...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------**Author's Note**
Sorry I had to change this back to the original way it was written because this story isn't really mine. My friend wrote it and wanted me to continue it and i changed even though i shouldn't have and i felt bad about changing it. So now its back to the way it should be.
