Don't think I want to jump just because of one girl. It's not because of her. It's because of everyone in my life. Everyone hates me and i don't even know what i did. You think my family would love me but they don't. My dad was an abusive ass and my mom blames me for leaving her when all i did was stick up for her.
**Flashback 2 years ago**
My dad had just gotten off of work and was already yelling at me when he got home. I try to stay out of his way whenever i can because when he gets really mad he takes it out on my mom. He gets mad for the simplest of things like not taking out the trash. If i don't do something he wants then he yells. After he yells at me he has a "talk" with my mom. So to avoid that i do everything i think will make him happy. But i guess i missed something today.
"Zayn get your fucking ass over here now!!" he yelled.
"I'm coming" I responded. I stopped doing my homework and walked down stairs. "Yeah."
"Don't fucking yeah me you little shit!" He spat.
"What, what did i do?" I nervously asked. My hands are shaking and my mouth is dry. I'm a little scared that he will start beating up on me. But I try to calm myself down.
"I told you before you went to school today that I wanted the whole fucking front and back yard's leaves raked! I come home and there has been nothing done in this damn house! What the hell have you been doing you lazy ass!" He screamed
"I'm.. I'm sorry. I I had to stay late after school to get extra help from my teacher. I don't want to fail her class. I mean i need to get into a good collage. So i stayed after." I told him
"I don't give a fuck about you failing her class or about your future! I told you to do something and that means you have to do it! What the hell is wrong with you. Trisha come here i need to talk to you now." He yelled.
My mum walked in with her head looking towards the ground. She knew what was going to happen and so did I. But i was tired of this. I was tired of him taking his anger out on my mum. She never did anything wrong ever. So why was she getting punished for something so stupid? I started to get full of anger. My body was heating up and i just couldn't take it anymore.
"Don't you dare fucking hit my mum! This has been going on for long enough. You need to stop before you push me to do something!" I snapped at him
"What the hell did you say to me you little shit?"
"You heard me. You need to stop. I'm tired of you hurting my mum like that when she does nothing to you. She's the best wife and you treat her like crap and this just needs to stop!"
Before i knew it he lunged for me and started to hit me. I wasn't gonna let him do this to anyone anymore. So i fought back. I didn't care if he was my father this was gonna end that's why i didn't hold back.
He punched me in my eye and left a mark. He also got a punch in my stomach but that didn't stop me. I punched him back in his face and busted open his lip. I kneed him in his stomach and knocked him to the ground. I started to keep punching him while he was down but my mom started to yell at me.
"Stop it!! You're hurting him! Get off of him already!" she screamed.
"I'm sorry mum but he got what he deserved. If i didn't do this then he was gonna do it to you and i couldn't have that happen anymore. I did this for you so you don't have to be scared anymore."
"I don't care you need to stop already! You're gonna hurt him! He can't get hurt I need him."
"Mum he beats you. You don't need someone like that. You can do better."
"You don't know what you're talking about Zayn. I love him. I need him."
My dad got off the floor and wiped off his blood. He grabbed his keys and looked me and my mum. "You both can have a good life with each other cause i don't give a fuck bout either of you." He angrily said.
"You don't mean that. You love us. You can't leave. You just can't. I'm sorry bout Zayn. I can fix him if he doesn't listen then I'll send him away. I'll do anything you want just please don't leave me."she wept.
"I don't care about what you have to say. I'm done with the both of you." and just like that he was gone.
"You see what you did! Everything was fine until you opened your big mouth. You made me lose the person I loved the most. It's all your fault. I HATE YOU!!!" she yelled as she ran up the stairs into her room and slammed the door.
I was left there just letting everything sink in. I was the bad person here even though i was protecting my mum. She blamed me for everything. She was getting beat and she didn't even care. She loved him more then me. And now my own mother hates me. She will never forgive me for what happened. Everything is all my fault and i have to live with that for the rest of my life...
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------**Authors Note**
Well There's the second chapter. Sorry I took so long but i couldn't think of anything. Oh and just so you know I'm not gonna always write when its a flashback but most of the chapters are gonna be flashbacks.
