The accident

Chapter 3

"Oso, Oso wake up,please wake up"

I'm startled awake, there are fresh tears on my cheeks and my heart is thumping as hard as a drum. I suddenly can't stop the tears and I throw myself into Colten's arms. He slowly strokes my hair and holds me tight not willing to let go of me until I stop. He whispers in my ear telling me it's all okay that I'm safe now but I can't get the feeling in my stomach to leave. I cry as I replay my friends death in my head watching her body fall to the floor. All I can think is how if I had just said to take me instead she would be okay, her family wouldn't have suffered and how she would still be here smiling and living life.

I hadn't even realized that we weren't in the car anymore. I was in a bedroom and Colten had come in through the door that connected our rooms.

"Oso it's okay it wasn't you're fault, I know you don't believe me but it wasn't there was nothing you could do"

Colten was still there holding me he had never let go.

"I could have said to take me, I could have given myself up so she could live but I was to scared."

"Oso Jacqueline wouldn't have wanted that, and you know it"

What Colten is saying is true but I can't help feeling I could have saved her. As I sit there crying I hear a quiet knock on the door. Andrea and September poke there heads in a mask of worry across there faces.

" Is every thing okay?" they ask even though they know it's not.

"Oso had the dream again" Colten says

All my friends slowly close the door and come into my room.

"Oso do you want us to stay in here for the night?" Andrea and September ask

"N,N,No" I mange through sobs

"Well I'm not leaving" Colten states, I know that there's no point in saying no so I just keep my head against his chest. After crying so much my body can't stay awake no matter how much I want it to. As darkness starts to envelope me I whisper Jacqueline's name.

I wake up to find that Colten had left during the night. As I slowly get up I try to register where I was. Then there was a soft tap on the door.

"Oso can I come in" my coach says

" Yes " I reply

He opens the door and walks in, he sits on the corner of my bed and I can tell he knows about my dream.

"Oso I'm going to ask you one last time , are you sure you want to do this?"

As I sit there on my bed I start to consider wether or not I could acually do this. I knew I was able to ski but I didn't know if I could really enjoy this if I raced. Then I realized that if Jacqueline where here she would tell me I had to do this. That she is excited to see me race and that I can't stop because of her. I realized I hadn't answered my coach for the past five minutes so I say

"Dylan I can do this, what happened has happened and I think I deserve to have some happiness now."

"okay Oso I'm very proud of you, I know you can do this."

As my coach walks out of my room I feel a little stronger.

Once I have put on all my racing gear I walk out side my room to find that everyone else is there eating breakfast. As I pour my self some milk for my cereal Colten sits down next to me.

" I'm sorry I left but you seemed to be doing fine and I needed to get ready."

" I don't mind at all, thanks for waiting till I was asleep it means a lot to me."

I look into his deep crystal eyes, i notice for not the first time how good looking he is. His wavy blonde hair is cut just above his eyebrows, his eyes are the color of the sea at night and and he has toned mucels on his body. But the thing that stands out to me is his smile, his smile is so beautiful it glows and it makes him seem like the hottest guy in the world. Even though so many people thought we were together, we weren't we are just friends. Sometimes his friends make jokes about him liking me but I just brush them off. I realize I have been staring at him for a really long time and I feel a blush slowly find its way up my cheeks. I turn away to hide it and I can tell Colten was staring at my probably smirking.

"okay you guys its time to head out" my coach yes at us from the doorway. As I grab my skiis and head our the door I can't help feeling like someone is watching me, I didn't know why but I was about to find out that very night.