Dangerous Love

23. I Miss You

Derek----

These past few days have been hell.. i hate not having any sort of contact with Jason, gosh i miss him so much! i wonder if i Jason thinks of me still? or if he ever passes by or if he even misses me, "Derek!" i heard my mom yell snapping me out of my thoughts. "Yes mom?" i asked walking into the kitchen, "what do you want for lunch?" i sighed "i'm not hungry mom" i looked down, "baby, you need to eat you haven't ate in days, whats wrong?" she asked walking near me, i looked down at her and let out a sob, she hugged me tight as i cried on her shoulder..

Jason-----

 i have spent my days drinking, i want to forget Derek but i cant, i love him so much. Why did i have to get involved with these things in the first place. At night i drive to Derek's, and sit outside his drive way. Some days i watch him, he looks so sad and broken, i just want to knock at his door and tell him how sorry i am & how i really want to be with him, fuck! i threw the half empty bottle at the wall "Jase" Ryan rubbed my back, "its going to be fine" he said, i looked up at him with tears running down my face "i miss him so much" i chocked out in between sobs, i have never cried over anybody, "why don't you text him?" he asked, i looked down at my hands, and sighed "i don't want him to get his hopes up again."