Dangerous Love

22. You can't be serious

-Jason

I was so happy that Derek was okay, we were currently sitting on the couch, Derek was watching his favorite movie while eating some chips, he was so cute, i was too busy in my thoughts to watch the movie, Derek doesn't deserve this, what if something actually happens to him, i can't be the cause of that, maybe i should let him go, maybe he will find a good guy, someone who won't put him in harms way, just thinking about it made my eyes water. "uh Jason are you okay?" i felt Derek shake me, "hmm, yeah yeah" i said not even looking at him.

-Derek

something was up with Jason, he wasn't focused, he wasn't laughing at the people in the movie like he always did, he was thinking, "hey Derek" i heard Jason say "yes" i turned around in my seat, "i have to tell you something" he started off not looking at me, "what is it?" i asked, scarred of what he might say, "well, i um i think we should stop seeing each other for a while" he continued, i felt my breathing stop, "getting close to you wasn't the best thing, i should have never done that, today i thought that something happened to you because of me, i'm scarred that something will happen to you and it will be my fault, i can't have that happen Derek, you are so amazing, i can't just come into your life and mess that up, any-anyone would be lucky to have someone like you, but Derek i don't deserve you, i um i'm so sorry" he finished off, we stayed quite for a while "look at me" i whispered, he slowly turned his head "i don't want them, i want you Jason, what ever it is we can work through it, please Jason don't do this" i said in between tears, Jason's eyes were watery but he wasn't letting the tears fall. "you don't understand Derek" he said "then make me understand" i pleaded "i cant i'm so sorry" and with that, he stood up and walked out..