Believe in me

Best friends can't stay best friends forever

Its December 12 so soon its my birthday. I was born December 22 and yesterday it was not so good of a day. I was talking to Bella and saying that I'm going to have a gymnastics birthday party but she wasn't in gymnastics anymore she quit and she didn't like how I was training 24-7 even when I was at her house. Apparently she didn't enjoying my Company when I was  going gymnastics and didn't think we could be bff anymore cause we didn't get along as much as we used to. I have always been there for her and she has been there and has helped me and has support me but not as much as I have done with her. She quit when she was 8 so I can see me doing gymnastics might have annoyed her but I would just ask her for tips I thought she was my best friend and I didn't know she thought we didn't have that much things in common. And that she had to call me on my house phone and say it cause it was in the middle of or 2 week Christmas break so she couldn't tell me face to face. She said she felt bad but right when I asked her why can't we be friends please please and I promise I won't do gymnastics around you she said sorry bye and hung up. Honestly she's been my best friend forever and I don't know how I'm going to live without her. She's been the best best friend I could ever have and sense then I have been really shy around my friends. I haven't really tried to make new friends and during recess I just make routines and practise gymnastics. But I do remember on my birthday she texted me and called me to say happy birthday but I never ended up having a birthday party cause we went to Niagara Falls and when we camp back it would be 2 days away from Christmas so we thought it would be fine if I didn't have a birthday party. So over all Bella and I aren't best friends or close friends but I'm pretty sure we are friends. But I'm still very shy and I'm 13 now and soon I'm going to high school and I don't know how I'm going to be able to make new friends.
It's may 26 and high school is almost here.
And if you are wondering and saying you just lost one friend why are you so shy that's because Bella was just like me and she was the only one I could fully trust I know I said that I was there more than she was there for me which was true but we both had each other's back though good and bad. I miss Bella and I don't want that to happen with anyone else so I'll just be there doing what I do best. I'm still talking to Bella just just as much.