Psycho "Love"

Cold Days ~memories~

"Momma, where's daddy gone?" My words were quiet and whinny as i stood next to Momma.

"He's.. Going away for a while" Momma said as we stood there watching as Daddy left the drive way. Momma's eyes were puffy and her cheeks were a red.

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Momma's been like that for a while.. She barely moves, she doesn't even look at me when i talk to her. She's always looking out that window.

"Momma?" I ask quietly, "are you going to work today? They called me momma and asked where you are."
She just stood there, she looked cold, with hollow eyes.

"Yes." She mumbled, "i'll go to work today.." She started moving, but so slowly, her eyes slowly moving from the window down to me. She rested her hand on my head and looked away from me. I watched as she walked up the steps, one by one, and closed her door.

I watched her come and go like that every morning for work, until she started getting mad when she got home. I may have been 6, 7, it's all jumbled together really. There was this one day, she came home, she seemed broken, you could see the hollows in her eyes again, but this time, there was also a flicker of anger, Red.

Momma walked up to me and pushed me to the ground, "it's your fault," she spat. "He wouldn't of left if you weren't born!" Momma hit me this time, across the face i felt tingles, then a harsh grip on my arm, i was lifted off the ground.

There was something different in her breath, it was strong and horrifying. I suddenly felt the hard floor underneath me, i would know this feeling daily, the sting in my face, the bruises on my body, the cold floor, and the quietness of my own room.

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I lay on the floor, crying, wanting to hide from her but she was there, she was always there. I'm older now.. But she's even angrier.. She walked towards me again, my hand went up as if to hide from her, she striked at me again and again.

She walked away from me, i was just laying there, on the carpet in the living room as she walked to the front door.
"I'd like you to meet your new family" she said smiling. She opened the door and let these.. People in, they were wearing white uniforms. They said nothing as they walked over to me, they picked me up off the ground by the arms like i was a misbehaving little child.

"Momma! Where are they taking me Momma? Don't let them take me, i'll behave i promise, i'll be a good girl!" I screamed, I don't know where I'm going, I don't want to go, i can be momma's good girl, i Know i can!

They threw me into the back of a white van, pinning me down, like a wild animal. They strapped me to a bedded table and put a muzzle onto my mouth, as if they were scared i was going to bite them.

"It'll be okay now." One of them said, as another wiped something cold and wet across my arm. I felt a pinch on my arm as they pulled a needle back out of my skin.

"You don't have to worry, you'll be Okay now" he said again, he voice was getting quiet and the world seemed to blur. He shushed me and i slowly started to stop, my body relaxed and i felt a hand on my arm.

"We'll take care of you." He said again, his voice fading out as i fell unconscious in this unknown area.