Eighteen {#wattys2016}

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(Alexa's POV)

I sat in the boys living room. My wrists were itching and burning but I was used to the feeling. Luke and Michael could not make eye contact with me. The room was very very silent.

"So I think we have some explaining to do" Calum said breaking the silence

"Go ahead" I said

"So before the meet up Luke and Michael made a bet with me. That I'd date a girl my age and do the do with her after that tell her I never loved her and break her heart." Calum said

"Good to know that" I scoffed

"Well when I met you I thought you were my age and you were very pretty and there was something about you that intrigued me. But then you let me in past your walls and you were fragile never mind that you were younger than me. I had fallen for you and now I can't get up. I'm in love with you and I didn't want to go through with the deal. I thought you were asleep so I went to call it off and then I saw the look in your eyes telling me you already heard" he finished

"As much as I'd like to hate you three right now I just can't. Your three idiots but your my idiots and I'm willing to give you three a second chance" I said

Calum's face lit up and he hugged me. I hugged him back and Luke and Michael seemed relieved. When me and Calum pulled apart I said

"Come here you two" and hugged them.

- -

We all decided to hangout at my house. So we were in my room talking about nothing.

"Um Alexa can I ask you something you don't have to answer it if you don't want to" Ashton said

"Sure lay it on me" I said

"Well uh how long have you been you know cutting?" He asked slowly

I felt my face heat up as I remembered the first time I cut.

"Um about 4 years ago" I said sheepishly

"Why didn't you get help earlier?" Michael asked

"Nobody noticed or seemed to care. So I kept it to myself. It's... Or it was my coping mechanism" I stuttered

- -

"Calum hold me!" I whined. Somehow I contracted a cold or a sinus infection. Everything hurts, I have the chills, and I have a fever.

"Hold on a minuet" he mumbled while putting his bass down to come lay next to me.

We were in the recording studio writing new songs for their next album. He layed next to me on the couch, and he cradled me.

"I've confirmed my death" I said

"Awwh babe you'll be alright" he said softly

I sniffled and said nasally "no help I'm dying and I can't get up I need life alert"

They all started laughing at my comment as I started coughing up a storm. I got up and put my hands behind my head and I stopped coughing.

Michael handed me my dink and I took some sips of it.

"Guys I'm gonna call my mom to pick me up" I said while pulling out my phone.

"Awwh your leaving the party so soon?" Ashton whined

"Yeah. Maybe you guys can come over later or something but right now I'm a distraction to your working progress so yeah" I said

"Your not a dis..."

I cut Calum off and said "yes I am you guys have gotten like what one song done? And we've been here for like two hours" I sniffled