Perks of Loving

Chapter 1

SHAM’S POV

 

 

I looked over at Augustus Waters, who looked back at me. You could almost see through his eyes they were so blue. “There will come a time,” I said, “when all of us are dead. All of us. There will come a time when there are no human beings remaining to remember that anyone ever existed or that our species ever did anything. There will be no one left to remember Aristotle or Cleopatra, let alone you. Everything that we did and built and wrote and thought and discovered will be forgotten and all of this” – I gestured encompassingly – “will have been for naught. Maybe that time is coming soon and maybe it is millions of years away, but even if we survive the collapse of our sun, we will not survive forever.

 

I glance at the clock beside my hospital bed. 11:48 am na pala. Ito ang paborito kong oras tuwing umaga kasi kainan na! Hehehe! mahilig kasi akong kumain kahit di halata sa katawan ko. ^^

I closed the book that I was reading. It was “The Fault in Our Stars” by John Green. This is one of my favorite books kasi nakakarelate ako dito, feeling ko ako si Hazel. :D  Though, hindi ko ito tinatapos. I hate sad endings, remember? Hanggang dun lang ako sa part bago mamatay si Augustus. Hehehe :))

Patayo na ako ng kama when the door suddenly opened. It was my dad.

“Oh, san ka pupunta? Nagdala na ko ng pagkain mo kasi alam ko namang ayaw mo ng foods dito sa hospital.” – dad

“Actually, i am heading out sana para pumunta sa favorite fastfood ko at bumili ng madaming madaming french fries. Antagal mo naman po kasi dumating, malapit ng mag-12 oh.” – sabi ko habang naka-pout.

Tinawanan lang ako ni dad kasi alam niya namang hindi ako makakapunta sa paborito kong fastfood chain para kumain. At isa pa, maramung pagkain ang bawal kong kainin because of my condition.

My mom died when I was five dahil din sa heart failure. Love na love naman ni dad si mom pero bakit kaya nagfail ang heart ni mommy? Hindi naman siya na-heart broken ni daddy. Just kidding! Because of that, hindi na ko nagkaron pa ng kasunod. Pinagbawalab na kasi si mom na magbuntis nang malaman nila na may sakit pala si mommy sa uso. Actually, it was only diagnosed during one of her check-ups when she is pregnant with me. According to dad,  tinanong pa nga daw siya ng doctor if she wants to abort me because her condition nga is too risky but she still chose to deliver me. I'm really thankful she did. I really love my mom inspite of the short time na nagkasama kami.

Kaya naman, simula noon ay si dad na ang nagpalaki sakin. We are super close kaya nga minsan parang barkada ko na lang sya kung ituring. Minsan nga niloloko niya ako na ingatan ko daw yung heart ko kasi ito ang pamana sakin ni mom. Well, if that’s it, I’m accepting it, open arms!

Si dad ang isa sa mga reasons kung bakit gusto ko pang mabuhay. Ako na lang ang natitira sa kanya dahil wala na si mom. Kahit na buhay pa naman sina lolo at lola, ako na lang ang natitira sa sarili niyang pamilya. Kaya naiintindihan ko kung bakit madalas siyang overprotective saken. Ayaw niya lang akong maagang mawala gaya ni mom.

Hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa kasi tuwing nakikita ko si dad na nakangiti, nabubuhayan ako ng loob. Never siyang nagpakita sakin ng panghihina ng loob kaya naman pinapakita ko din sa kanya na I’m trying my bestest to survive this challenge of life.

FRANCE’S POV