I roll over facing away from the blinding light coming through my window.
My blonde and brown hair tangled, but it's Saturday so that's something good, although there isn't much good seeing as it's another day and I'm still here, still alive, ugh!
If it weren't for my big brother Matt I wouldn't be here although I still don't really want to be here.
I laugh at my morning thoughts great way to start the day.
"Maddy the guys are coming if you wanna see us practise?" Matt yelled from somewhere downstairs. "Be there in a sec" I yell back. Matts the guitarist in a band with his best friend Josh and two other of their friends Mike and Ian they are really nice
and I really hope they make it big sometime, but for now they just practise in our basement and sometimes can get a small gig at a coffee shop. I love watching them practise so I turn over removing my
head from the pillow and sit up on my bed, looking over to the mirror I can see how horrible I look, like always huh! my brown eyes have bags under them and my face just looks ugh! not to mentions my straight slightly longer than shoulder length blond hair with brown highlights and black ends is all messed up and everywhere covering half my face.
Not to mentions my wrists are just disgusting coved in scars fresh and old, oh well I did it to myself, can't really complain.
I stand up not really caring to get
to dressed up, but at least do the 'I so just got out of bed' look, so I go to my dresser draw and pick out some purple worn plad pj pants with a long sleeve v neck purple Shirt. I put on light foundation mascara and throw my hair in a messy ponytail as I head downstairs I see Josh and Matt eating cereal, Josh is always here, not that I mind I like all the guys they are basically my brothers.
"Morning" Matt chirps in, I've gotten use to his awkwardness that lurks in his voice. I groan in response. "Hey" Josh smiles "hey" I smile back and head to the fridge to get some water. "No cereal" Matt asked 'and risk gaining weight no thanks' I think "I'm not a morning eater" I say Matt shot my a glare, he knew I use to starve myself but as far as he knows I'm 'better' ha I laugh at
the thought,
I can never be better!
I knew Matt wouldn't say anything in front of Josh,
but it was weird, Josh was like this mysterious guy that made everybody think he was an open book, but I new better. I got suspicious a while ago,
but I can't prove anything.
"I'll be back, gotta use the washroom" Josh said THERE! that is exactly what I mean! every time he eats he goes to the bathroom right after. That was one of my suspicions, and you know what, I want to prove myself wrong once and for all.
"I'll be right back" I say to Matt following Josh down the hall the second he closes that door my ear is pressed up against it. wow! aren't I something. I'm practically listening to a guy use the washroom. Well then with that thought aside I listen intensely, but I can't hear anything over the water from the sink. fuck so close. Just then
I hear Matt talking, guess the other guys are here. I walk back to the kitchen to see Matt doing the 'manly' hug. Then I being me squeal and ran over to Mike and Ian "OMG aren't you from that really famous band! can you sign my forehead" I sarcastically beg.
This was just my normal greeting "nice to see you do Maddy" Mike replies giving my the biggest hug ever. Ugh! Mike gives the best hugs. I look over to see Josh now standing there "I never got my hug and squeal" he pouts looking at the ground so his black hair is coving his eyes.
"If I squealed and hugged you every time I saw you I think you might hate me since that would be like 7 times a ffucking day" I say hugging him before Matt chips in "no swearing"
"God Matt! you swear" I say slightly playing him slightly annoyed since he always tells me I can't swear.
"So I'm 17 you can't have a 16 year old swearing that just isn't right" he says.
"You say that every year Matt"
"Maybe you should get it through your head then" he replies, well that kinda made sense good job Matt were making improvement. I laugh at that thought.
"So band practise and then maybe we could go to Sam's party tonight" Josh says. He is always one for a party. God this kid needs limits, but I have to admit even though I'm not that social I like parties. Free drinks or as I like to call them 'make all the bad things go away for a bit' sounds good to me
"Can I come?" I ask
"Im not sure that'll be a good thing Maddy it's just your young and a girl and I know guys and" Matt trails off
" I can handle myself... please Matty" I loved that play on names Matty and Maddy I don't know why but I find it historical.
"Fine just be carful and stick with Josh"
"Wait why Josh why not just one of you?" I ask back
"Josh is the only one with no friends so I thought he'd like someone to talk to" he says and all the guys except for Josh laugh "haha" Josh says.
"Deal" I say back before we all go down stairs so they can practise.
'A party, well this should be interesting" I smile to myself.
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Silent Screams (a Marianas Trench fan fic)
Fanfiction*Warning: May be Triggering* Matt Webbs little sister, Maddy who has depression struggles with self harm and an eating disorder finds herself at a party when she comes close to getting raped the people trying to rape...
