Silent Screams (a Marianas Trench fan fic)

Chapter 3 a start

I wake up the same way as always, in the same boring routine facing the blinding sun as I take in the ugly reality.




I hear some banging downstairs from pots and pans. Probably Matt trying to make breakfast. He really can't cook.




I get up from bed and walk down stairs grungy, I walk past Matts room and his door is wide open as I walk by. I walk through the hall and down the stairs and find both Matt and Josh watching the pan with two cracked eggs in it intensely I walk over to them looking at the uncooked eggs "you know it helps to turn it on" I say and they both jerk their heads to me obesely just noticing that I'm here.




"Yeah we know but it feels like we're missing something" Matt says turning his attention back to the pan. Josh just gives me a look like he's confused. I guess with what happened last night although, I barely remember anything.




"You don't have a headache?" Josh says as I go to the fridge getting out some orange juice and a glass. "ummmm yeah but were out of Advil I think I'll get some later" I say unhappy because I know he's not talking about the alcohol I had.




He's talking about the same thing I have not been able to stop thinking about, heroin. the only thing I want right now the only thing I know to get rid of the pain and everything else all at once even if it's only for a little bit.




I guess he sees me thinking "hey can we talk" he asks looking concerned he can't read me can he? no impossible I've been faking a smile since I was 12 he couldn't see right through me. "ok" I gulp putting the orange juice back in the fridge. Matt still hasn't really bothered he's to concerned about the pan.




We walk up the stairs and into my bedroom and he shuts the door behind us.




"So what happened last night?" he asks I really didn't want to talk about it "well I went to the party sat in the corner got drunk went for a walk I remember swimming in a lake I found then they came got on me pinning me I struggled after a while they gave me heroin to I guess stop me from struggling and then you came right before he raped me" I said quickly wanting this conversation to end.




"And what did you feel from it" he asked more slowly like he didn't want my response. although I can see why I've only had it once but I know I want more. "nothing" I reply "ok" he said but it didn't feel like he believed me one bit I'll have to try to throw him off later but for now I needed my fix.




He walks out of my room and I quickly get dressed putting on a Plain white t shirt jeans and a jacket leaving my straight hair down and grabbing my purse I walk downstairs and head for the door "where are you going?" Matt asked just before I was able to leave "oh umm just gonna go grab some Advil" I say and try to leave again but Josh interrupts my action "Why don't I come" he says "no I'm fine" I say "no I think Josh should come were really close to the bad part of Vancouver and he needs to walk home anyway" Matt says. G thanks Matt "ok" I say and he grabs his jacket and walks out the door with me.




I stay silent as we walk. I didn't want to talk I just wanted, it.




Then I think of something "shit" I exhale "what" Josh asked concerned "we have Advil I just put it in the basement bathroom" lie "oh ok well then you don't need to buy any" he says "yeah ok well thanks for walking with me I guess ill just go home then" "ok......... be careful" he says he wasn't sure at first but he gave in. I turned around and started walking back till I couldn't see him.




I then hit the corner and started walking toward downtown and within a few mins I'm there. About twenty mins later of mindlessly walking around until a man comes up to me "Can I get you anything" he asks his raspy voice deep and from what I can tell he is tall maybe 6'1 and kinda lanky with short cut hair and his black hoddie up but I knew he was the person I wanted to see. "umm yeah" I respond nervously "what can I get you" he says with a creepy smirk. "got any heroin" I ask quietly "yeah how much you want" "about a 3 day supply" "that about 280$ " "ok" I say and hand him the money I count from my purse and he hands me a bag with needles.




'Perfect' I think to myself shoving it in my purse and turning but before I leave he hands me a paper "for when you run out" he says "thanks" I reply shoving it in my jean pocket and turn for home.




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I sit on my bed needle in hand 'finally' I breathe as I inject the liquid into my veins and instantly feel relief fill my blood and I lay back on my bed letting it take over. 'I could get use to this' I think to myself.