3 weeks later
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It's been three weeks since what happened and it's been really hard hiding my addiction from Matt but more so Josh surprisingly he keeps on checking in on me at least twice a day when he comes over to hang out with Matt and it's really concerning me because I can't have him finding out.
Troy the name of the guy that ran into me has been giving me some more of it I'm going almost everyday and I'm trying to cut back to every other day since it's really expensive shit, but I doubt I can do that. Nobody understands how amazing it feels and just the beauty of it all it's like your in your own world you make reality blurred and focus more on this world you are creating in your mind.
As for the other guys they've asked if I wanted to go swimming a lot seeing as how they are coming over close to every day now and we have a pool in our backyard after awhile of me saying no they started to get worried so I just sat outside in a beach chair and a long sleeve shirt and watched them.
Although josh sits with me every time he says it's because he doesn't want to leave me alone when the rest of the guys are having fun but I think it's more than that and I'm kinda scared of what my thoughts have lead to.
Right now the guys are here just chilling downstairs in the kitchen and I'm up in my room writing some music just for fun it's only 3pm but already I can start to feel the craving for the thing that never leaves my thoughts start to creep up on me again.
I close my song book and pick up my phone.
"Hey Troy same time tonight -Maddie"
"Ready when you are -Troy" he sends back within seconds. I've gotten to know Troy a little and he isn't the guy you want to hang around he seems like the person that would murder you with out a regret and he's really scary if you don't do what he wants right when he wants it.
But hey at least I still get what I want.
I'm interrupted from my thoughts from a knock on the door and in walks Josh. "hey" he says "hey what's up" I reply "the guys and I were just wondering if u wanted to come get a bite with us?" he asked "umm no thanks I'm not really hungry" I reply wow I wonder how many times I can use that excuse.
"Ok" he says with a hint of worry or disappointment in his voice, and leaves closing the door I hear chatting and another door closes and I realize I was holding my breathe so I let it out.
Home alone! I think to myself at last!
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Silent Screams (a Marianas Trench fan fic)
Fanfic*Warning: May be Triggering* Matt Webbs little sister, Maddy who has depression struggles with self harm and an eating disorder finds herself at a party when she comes close to getting raped the people trying to rape...
