I feel sad.
Nope, "sad" doesn't even fit to describe what I'm feeling right now.
You. You left me hanging. Where did all those "I'm always here for you" went? Where?!
You said you don't want to give me false hopes, but you did idiot! You made me fall, fall hard then left me mid air without any word.
As I write this entry in the library, I badly want to cry. I've been pretending its okay in front of my friends and to myself, but when I'm alone, I feel like something's missing. There's a hole in my heart.
I didn't actually think its going to be this deep, but hell! It is.
I don't know. I don't know anymore. I can't move on, but you? Maybe you've been great that I'm out of your life already. You've been happily talking to other girls, treating them like how you used to treat me. It hurts thinking of that. My heart feels like its getting crushed and my breath was taken for a second.
I feel pathetic. I feel like I'm looking like a desperate girl, but to hell I care?! I just really want to vent this out.
Teary eyes.
Heavy sighs.
Crushing heart.
Exactly what I feel whenever you cross my mind.
Why did you actually do that?? Why all of a sudden?? Why??
Do pain really change people? Do pain really makes you stronger?
I don't think so. I feel weak and broken. I feel like I didn't do everything to make you stay. That-- that I wasn't enough. My efforts were not enough. You kept on saying it was you, but I really think it was me.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
