I want to be done with this life of feeling bad about myself and feeling fat and all its all crap
I don't want to spend another night crying and starving myself for a day then going back to my old way
Hopefully you guys will support me with this journey
Just before I started writing I ate 3 slices of bread which is totally wrong for someone trying to lose weight I know damn I'm so stupid 😢😢😢
Why do I let food control me what's wrong with me
Writing all of this just brought me to tears my heart hurts so much like so so much . All this is so difficult for me .
I HATE looking at myself all these ugly stretch marks I'm just so disgusted I can't even finish a sentence without bursting into a puddle of tears
I'm so scared of rejection of not being perfect enough . I just wanna feel beautiful I just wanna good ,everyone always says Jessica wow you're so sexy you're so pretty but I don't see it at all I feel like a ugly mess of a person and honestly until I get to my goal I want feel any different
So I am gonna keep a daily report of my profess to see if I'm getting anywhere with this journey until then I just want to block out social media for a while and concentrate on me and my journey and when I've reached my goal I'll be back on my snapchat and instagram but guys please follow Me @ pizz_a_whore
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Not At My Best.... Yet
General FictionA story of my teen weight loss Journey All the struggles of being in high school Becoming a cool kid and finally getting attention I've always wanted . hopefully at the end of this I'll be where I want to be .For all the people str...
