Too Rare to live, Too weird to Die(Panic! at the Disco Fanfic)

The confession

Brendon's POV

As she ran to her room I turned to see Spencer giving me a 'Dafuck just happened' look. We starried at each other in confusion for a minute.

"Dude I don't know what happened but I saw it coming....go to her what tha hell are you doing here ...go." I nodded and ran to her room which was in the other half side of the house. I tried to open her door it was lock, "Paige! Paige open the dam door we NEED to talk!" I started to hit the door will the palm of my hand.

"Go away! I don't want to talk besides you made a whole song about hating open door well there you have it, go away I don't want to see you right now!" I stopped hitting the door.

"Come on Paige what do you want from me! You kissed me and now you are yelling at me to go away!" I really like her and I'm confused and mostly I don't want to have a fight with her. There goes another minute of pure silence. "I'm ....... sorry .....Uire but I need time to think about this... Please leave." She sounded calmer now. I walked away from her door.

Dammit she didn't even gave me me her opinion on the song. Should I through it away.
"Hey Spence where is Dallon? Oh and you saw nothing! Don't tell Dal about what just happened, I don't want to get a black eye for making her cry about something I even dont understand, she won't tell me what's going on!"

"Dude give her a break, if you give her space she will give you your answers."

I felt like I got slapped in the face, does she not like me? But she kissed me! And this morning we had so much fun together except for the hospital 'event'.

"Oh and Dallon went to get a gift for Paige, tomorrow's her birthday."

"........Oh my God Thanks Spence, you just gave me an idea! How about I get her an I'm sorry gift for her."

"Okay let's go. I was going to go with Dal but I forgot my wallet, come on let's go, and don't worry about Paige. Ryan will be here any second now he just texted me." Actually Im kinda worried. I think he might like her, Ryan is a flirty guy and all, but something's up with him and I know my Ryan, I know him like the back of my hand.

So we got really to go out, oh and we told Paige that we will be back soon.

Paige POV

Its been five minutes since the guys left me. I'm in the bathroom thats in my room just cying looking over to the box of razors. I really want to, but I can't I can't go down that hill again. But what if I do it just this once. I get up from the corner of the bathroom where I was siting. I reach for the box, get out one of the razors. "Well it looks like we meet again old pal, Steve." I talk to the razor, yeah I know Im crazy.

Long time ago one of my partners in college asked me who was my best friend, well I couldn't choose. Out of all my friends...hahaha no I had no one at the time so I told her a random name, Steve. That day I went home to my 'trusty' razor, and realized that he was my only friend he made me feel better when i felty like shit, he was Steve.

I get the razor and put it up to my arm close to the shoulder. I don't want the guys to see it so it looks like Ima have to wear sleeve, shit but I'm in LA it's hot out...well then. I close my eyes and gently start to press. I hear a knock at the door. I put the razor back in the box. I barely got a cut, it looks like a paper cut. Well I will have to do this later. "later Steve."

I went to get the door. I really didn't care who it was and looking down I walked away from the door and headed to my room. "Hey...Wait Paige Spencer texted me that you were feeling good are you sick? Do you you have a headache ..." I stopped and turned to face him. I looked up to see him and looked to the side.

"Paige what happened, did Brendon or Spencer hurt you because if.."

"No its just that I... its a long story." I wiped some tears of my eyes with my hand.

"Well if its a long story then go to your room and I will come back with some snacks and drinks for use to eat while you tell me Everything!"

"you don't have to really its..."

"Oh I have to, you were there for me today and made me feel better even though we barely met, and for that it is my duty to be there for you, now go." He walked up to me hugged me and kissed my forehead. His hug was the warmest and best hug that I have every gotten, I don't know why but that hug was just so heartwarming.

I'm in my room waiting for Ryan.

"Hey I didn't know what you wanted so I got some popcorn and chocolate ice cream, and some Pepsi." He walked in a sat next to me in the bed.

"i'll take the ice!" I say and get a two spoons for me and Ry. We dive in. "Okay so what's this long story." He came in closer to me. I could feel his warmth next to me I like it.
"it all started when Dallon moved out here...."

I was about to tell him every thing.

"When Dallon left deprestion took over me for months until I found some one. We hangout a lot. I was falling I was fall in love. We became a couple and year later, who I thought was the love of my life proposed to me. The week before our wedding...." I started to cry harder into my hands. Ryan hugged me. I was crying in his shoulder.

"You don't have to tell me if.."

"I saw my fiancé with who was apparently Brendon's ex fiancé!"

"Wait Sarah lives here, you were going to get married here, did Dallon know?"

"No I kinda lost my phone at the time and I didn't memorize his number so we lost touch"

"Does he know about this, wait have you told anyone else?!"

"..no"

"just me!"

"Well you wanted to know."

"So does it feel better now that it of your chest."

"Yeah..it does. Thank you." I kissed his cheek and hugged him. I heard the door open up a little bit.

"Your welcome sweet heart" Ryan said still hugging me. He kissed my cheek too. I looked over to see Brendon looking at me and Ryan. He looked shocked.