The voice

I cant talk to you

Jacob locked the front door and heard upstairs into Connie's room and found her lying on the bed fast asleep in her bra and knickers with her hand placed on her abdomen. Jacob studied her for a moment he noticed that every few seconds her hand scrunched up into  a tight ball he guessed that she was doing this as her body was groaning for nutrients constantly. He sighed she looked so miserable. He wanted the old bubbly happy Connie back. At the moment Connie was shutting everyone out of how he wished that she didn't.

Connie slowly woke up she smiled when she saw him and he smiled back and walked over to the bed and stripped down to his boxers and climbed in to bed next to her he pulled his lady closer to him and kissed her lightly on the lips she smiled and kissed back gently.  They broke apart and laid back down cuddled next to each other. Connie had her head resting Jacobs chest he could feel hear her breathing her breathing was rather rapid and heavy he knew this was yet another horrible sign.

"How are you feeling babe?"  Jacob asked considerately.

"Better" Connie lied.

Suddenly Connie had a horrible feeling rip right through her vulnerable figure. She looked up at Jacob with fear in her eyes she covered her mouth Jacob knew she was about to throw up. So he grabbed a bowl that Connie kept under the bed in case of emergencies. He held her hair back whilst she emptied liquids from her body this was more blood which had clots in and over liquids which were well a warning...

Jacob didn't like the look of what was in the bowl. This put made him even more determined on he mid set to talk to her about the whole topic of anorexia. Judging by what was in the bowl he needed to now. 

Connie lay back slowly onto Jacobs chest. He wrapped his arms around her protectively.

"You lied to me honey" Jacob said sadly.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry" Connie cried hitting her tummy.

"Hey, hey" said Jacob grabbing her wrists gently in attempt to stop her hurting herself  'I'm not angry, just concerned for your welfare baby why did you hit yourself?'.

"Because, because, because I have to keep it a secret it says I can't tell anyone about my problem I
can't talk I can't tell anyone about my problem" Connie placed her hand on her mouth when she realised what she had said.

"What problem Connie?" Jacob asked trying to acted worried so she wouldn't suspect that he had suspicions.

"Oh don't worry Jay" she lent forward to kiss him in order to try and distract him.

"No Connie" Jacob said pulling her away but still holding her tightly in his arms 'I am not going to let you distract me this time, I know what the problem is you haven't been eating you have been felling sick as a result and you are throwing up substances that well you shouldn't be. As well as getting increasingly thin and unhappy'.

"How long have you known?" Connie whispered.

"I have had suspicions for ages but I wanted to be sure before I said something Connie it was fear of losing you" Jacob explained.

"Right okay," Connie stuttered.

"Why didn't you tell me babe?" .

"I can't talk about it it won't let me" .

"Who won't let you?".

"The voice, inside my head" Connie cried hitting her head.

Jacob grabbed Connie's hands to stop her hitting her breathing became more rapid. She struggled away with her hands and clutched her bare chest she looked into Jacobs eyes with tears glistening in them.

"Connie, baby?" Jacob cried anxiously .

"I can't breath" she stuttered in a laboured tone she closed her eyes and fell back into the bed.

Jacob stared at her body it was shutting down he picked up his mobile and rang an ambulance.

He moved her body onto her left side. The recovery position. He held her hand tightly and kept whispering to her even though she properly couldn't her him he whispered constantly till the ambulance arrived 'everything's going to be okay, everything's going to be okay' though it most likely wasn't going to be. He knew that when they got to hospital they were most likely going to put a tube in her stomach to feed her as she was extremely malnourished. He really, really hoped that everything would be okay he really didn't want the 'voice' to win.

Hi hope you enjoyed this part and found it interesting 🌸💚 I am now updating my stories on by one in a set order 📒. Also I am trying to think up some ideas for 'Jonnie one shots' if you have any ideas or suggestions for one please leave me suggestions also please leave comments on what you thought of  this chapter. When I get comments I have more motivation to write I really do appreciate them 🎀🎈.