The Line Between Pain and Pleasure

The Turning Point

I got home and immediately took a shower. I needed to was the hotness of my day away. Relishing in the memories of the past two days. In such a short time so much has changed.

I slipped on a pair of boxers and a tank and brushed the tangles out of my hair. I made my way to tea kitchen made myself some tea and say on the couch. I flick on the tv and take a sigh of relief my first time relaxing in what feels like ages.

I turn on investigation ID which is my favorite. If I hadn't wanted to be a doctor I would've defiantly pursued being a forensic scientist. But regardless I was stuck in the modeling world and it was tough to get out.

My phone buzzes and pulls me away from my thoughts.

Hello beautiful. I enjoyed our little adventure earlier. Can't wait for our next one ;)

Who did this guy think he was. Yes I've literally never done anything like this before. Never in my life have I been the one to throw myself into some guys arms like he was a saving grace.

I quickly text back. In your dreams champ.

Instantly I get a reply. I can make my dreams reality

I rolled my eyes and sunk into the couch enjoying this time to myself. I didn't get much of it . And soon I drifted off.

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Hands are roaming up my thighs. I feel them rubbing over my panties. I close my eyes tight and pretend I'm sleeping. I tense my 8 year old body and begin to pray. Pray it will all stop . But no. It continues I feel my panties slipped down my waist. And a finger slide down the slit of my innocence.

"Stop it, GET OFF OF ME. STOPPPP!"

Soon I jolt awake and find Shaun between my legs. Immediately I shove him shocked my his presence. He hits the ground with a thud.

"What the fuck Carissa."

"No Shaun. What the fuck are you doing. WHATRE YOU DOING HERE." I felt the tears begin to stream down my face. He looks up to see my eyes tearful.

"Baby. I'm sorry what's wrong." He reaches out for my hand.

"Do touch me!" His eyes are filled with pain and confusion.

I finally relax and come back to reality. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I motion for him to sit next to me. And I cuddle up to his chest. I wanted him near me. To hold me. To keep me safe.

"What's wrong angel, I didn't mean to scare you, I took your flirting with me earlier to literal I guess. But when you start with that smart mouth it does something to me."

"No Shaun, it's not you. I was just having a nightmare of something that has happened to me in the past. I haven't had many boyfriends or been very interested in exploring sexual activities because all of my 'firsts' were taken away from me. Stolen by a man my family trusted. He stole my youth from me." He stared and for a minute tears filled his eyes and was quickly replaced by pure anger.

"Who the fuck is he. I swear I'll rip his fucking head off. Touching such an innocent being. How old were you?"

"It started when I was 6 until I was 9. I was scared. I told his wife and she told me she would stop it. She told me everything would be okay. And she did nothing. Absolutely nothing." I began to sob.

"What the fuck kind of people are they. Baby no one is ever going to hurt you again. I'm here. Shhhhh baby. I'm here." His words soothing. I lean on his chest as he rocks me back and forth.

The tears soaking his shirt, he strokes my hair again and again. And in that moment I know he cares. I know it's not just sex. I've shared something so personal, so intimate with this man. And in that moment I know this is where I want to be.

I'm his arms.

A/N : Hey everyone. This chapter was very personal for me and took a lot for me to write. Thank you all for all the votes. I'm excited to get this story on its feet. I hope you enjoyed the update. I'll update very soon

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