The Line Between Pain and Pleasure

Opening Up

After catching our breath. We laid for a while. I finally broke the silence.

"Why do you have to marry Andrea?" I feel his heart rate begins to quicken. He looks up at me and sighs.

"It's a long story."

"Well we have the rest of this plane ride..." We both sit up and begin to put our clothes on.

I sit Indian style on the bed and he gets up and sits in the recliner chair that sits next to the night stand.

"My life hasn't always been easy. I didn't always have this life or lifestyle. Just because I portray that my life is great doesn't mean that it is."

"Tell me, I want to know everything about you."

"I have to marry her because the contract says I have to." He puts his hands on his face and rests his elbows on his knees.

"Wait, I'm confused. What contract?"

"The contract between my whore mother and Andrea's fucked up father."

My mouth parts and I don't know exactly what to say. Thankfully he continues.

"Listen, my father was never around. My mother told me that he left when I was young and I believed her. Until I got older and found out he was dead. His death was ruled an accident but many people were skeptical, and thought my mother killed him. He was in the garage when the rack that holds his tool boxes "collapsed" and fell on him. Besides that, my mother was addicted to crystal meth. She'd leave me alone for days by myself. She ultimately sold me to Andrea's father for a life time of drugs, which wouldn't being considering she overdosed 8 months later."

I hear a sniffle and I know he's crying. He wipes his face and looks up at me. "What did he want you for? And how did he get the drugs for your mother?"

"He's a drug dealer, he originally wanted a son but got Andrea. He got into a bad accident that prevented him from having anymore children. So he bought me. He wanted me so I could carry on the "family" business. So I'm now forced to marry his daughter."

"Oh." I felt so stupid for the way that I acted. He was being forced to do something that he didn't want to do. And me like a dumbass made it all about me before even knowing the whole story.

"Does she know?"

"No. She has no idea. I always lived with her fathers bestfriend. And it was my job to make her fall in love with me." He lowers his head in shame. "And she did."

"But that's a good thing right?"

His head shoots up. And he stares directly into my eyes. "No."

"Why not."

"I'm not a bad guy, I don't want to break anyone's heart. I don't love her. And I know it's fucked up but I don't. I can't. I know it's not her fault but how can I love someone who's related to the person who has controlled and ruined my life since I was 14. I just can't."

His voice becomes barely audible.

"I'm sorry." I get up from the bed and kneel between is legs. "It's not your fault."

"I don't think I could love her even if I tried, not now."

"Why?"

A small silence fills the room. And finally is broken.

"Because I think I'm falling in love with someone else."

I gasp. Could he be talking about me? I'm not sure. And I don't ask. Not after everything he's just told me. I didn't wanna push my luck.

He lifts my head by my chin and plants a soft kiss on my lips.

I stand and he follows. We begin to walk out the door and my phone buzzes. He reaches to the night stand and grabs it.

Sender unknown. He opens the message and it read.

Unknown: You know to much. I'd watch your back if I were you.

Shaun looks at me. Fire in his eyes and his jaw clenched.


What the fuck did this person want from me. Was my life in danger. Now I'd have to tell him about the weird text messages id been receiving.

This relationship or whatever this was, was getting deep, fast.


A/N : I know this update is short but I've been a lot more busy today than I expected, and I stay true to my word. I said I'd update & I have. & I might just do a late night update tonight if I get some good comments and feedback.:)

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