Hold Me Forever

Chapter 1

His arms tightened around my waist and I snuggled me head into the crook of his neck. Dried tears were crust on my cheeks and my nose was two shades of red from my constant crying.

I looked up into his bright blue eyes and found myself without worry and feeling completely insane for letting those poisonous drops of liquid fall down my cheeks.

The rough pads of his fingertips were rubbing soothing circles into the skin on my back, under the ancient tee shirt i was wearing. The simple gesture sent millions of tiny sparks traveling through my veins.

"Who needs that imbecile anyway?" his thick voice laced through the words as he spoke. so much intensity fillies his eyes that i shivered in his lap and hugged his body tighter to mine. His flawless smile never ceased to brighten my spirits, so when he flashed those pearly whites at me i forgot about the way my broken heart was producing music like a broken record.

"If i were him," an icy laugh escaped his lips before he continued. "i wouldn't even think about letting you go in the first place, but if i were him I'd be regretting my decision right this minute and every minute of my life."

It was times like these were i would fall for his undeniable charm and witty comments that made my heart soar to places that it shouldn't especially by the hand of my best friend.

Or who I thought was my best friend.

It was the times when he took away all of the pain i was suffering through that i forgot the killer grip he had on my heart. and that at any moment he could decide to squeeze and crush my already cracked heart.

It actually happened quicker than i thought it would, although i could never of guessed that my childhood best friend was my soul mate or that he would reject me at a drop of a hat, but i guess i didnt know Ari the way i thought i had.

Strangling and suffocating incubus' take over my dreams and haunt the visions of my life, every time i think of the way his voice hitched with such raw emotion every time he assured me that he would never leave my side.

Now i wish that during all of those moments his mouth would seal shut and be quiet, because nothing that came out of that foul mouth of his, none of his comforting words were the truth.

Music pounds into my ears as i walk down the abandoned hallway. my breathing was steady and my heart beat was controlled, like i wasn't internally having an anxiety attack about stepping into this school after the events that occurred three months ago.

I reached for my phone in the back pocket of my shorts and pressed the volume button until i though the sound coming from my earbuds would make my insides explode. i just needed to make my brain incapable of thinking about him.

'Im a different person than i was last year.' i tell myself over and over again until no other words could form in my head. And until i actually believed the sickening lies i was telling myself to somehow help me get through this day.

I turned the corner and stood before the classroom door that i remember all to well as the science lab, which was my third period class considering i was planning on calling off sick and skipping in general.

Gathering up some sort of make believe courage i brewed before getting here, i took the steps into the room and without truly looking at my classmates, i could feel every eye on me.

I handed my light pink late slip to Mr. Moore, avoiding looking at the class for as long as possible. it was so unbelievably quiet that i could of dropped a crumb off a cookie and it would sound like a entire marching band going through the classroom.

I run a hand through my hair and raise my eyes to the people i grew up with only for my green orbs to be directed to a certain boy's ocean blue eyes. its been three months but i couldn't help but notice how he hadn't changed a bit. He was still Ari.

I wanted to think he was still MY Ari, but knew that wishful thinking never did me any good.

My eyes fell on the empty desk right in front of me and I quickly shuffled over to it and sat down. my heart was hammering against my chest, i closed my eyes and took a deep breath before pealing the buds from my ears.

{Kenny}