.

Wanting to die cuz we’re everything we said we wouldn’t be

And I miss you like Alaska misses the night in the dead of summer

And I never quite understood your admirations

And how you turned into the most beautiful person I’ve ever had to privilege to look at

No matter how many times I tell myself I’ll be alright I know it’s not true

Because your smile is the sugar to the bitter coffee that is life

And reminiscing starts to get old after the first hundred times

I think about the first time I kissed you and how perfectly imperfect it was

And I know I felt you drifting away

 but I wanted to hold on so tight that I suffocated you in the process

and I can’t ever help but wonder what if? But these questions are pointless

cuz time will never turn back to that time at the skate rink where I first held your hand

or the time we spent five hours speaking on the phone about god knows what

and the fact that I risked so much for you and you threw it all away

I know it’s not easy trust me I’ll be the first to tell you love can’t fix everything.

 

I just wish you’d let me try.