So your leaving today
I wish I would've known
I don’t know how I can handle your passing
Cause this is harder than a passage
But I pray that you go to a safe place
And that I don’t take my life
In the mist of the night
Maybe one day I will learn
Not to hold on to all this bitching
Cause I feel like I'm missing something real
Hiding behind make up and adultery
Not knowing where my heart should be
Scared of the church for it burns
Uneasy to catch my breathe
With the fear of drowning
Turning to the world instead of the word even though I know
What's right and what's wrong
Or maybe I'm wrong just fell in by mistake
But the big guy makes no mistakes
yes you say you wont give me more than I can handle but
Lord I'm suffocating and there's no way out
Hell and damnation is trapping me in this box,
Its getting hot with my head to the ground
Finding it harder to pray everyday
They could've warned me told me that I could overdose on what was prescribed
But instead they let me die
