Playing the part.

Those three Words

I walked out of the bathroom and everyone was standing around the kitchen. Louis's eyes met mine and he smiled.

"You okay love?" I shook my head and he walked to me. I looked at the ground but he pulled my face up and held it with his hand for a second before letting go and grabbing my hand. "Why what's wrong?" I shook my head and felt tears prick my eyes but I pulled them back and faked a smile.

"Somehow Jesse's broken his foot. He was planning to leave tomorrow anyway but he can't go alone now because he wouldn't be able to carry the luggage and stuff." he gave me a look thAt said he wasn't buying what I was saying. Damn it why can't I think straight. "So... I have to go but I'll be back at the flat in a day or so." He looked back to the boys and said a be right back then motioned for me to follow him outside. I looked at Harry and he gave me a worried expression. Sighing I followed Louis outside.

Once we were a good ways away from the house he stopped and turned to me.

"You're bullshitting me again aren't you?" My eyes widened and I shook my head. He let out a bitter laugh and I started to become worried. "So after all this you're going to leave again? How long is it going to be this time without speaking with me? A month maybe now." I stopped him and he shook his head. I dug my thumb into my palm and breathed out.

"Louis. It's got nothing to do with you! I told you why I'm going away for a day or tw-"

"And it's bullshit. You may be able to tell that to other people El but not to me. I know you do that weird thing with your thumb when you're not telling the truth." My eyes widened slightly and I pushed my hands behind my back. "I thought you changed? You said you changed. God you acted like you've changed. But when will you stop lying to me? I mean fuck El have you been lying this whole time? Are you cheating on me or something?" He was giving me a look of disgust, I stepped back and gave him one of those you've got to be shitting me looks.

"Are you serious Louis?" I don't know what Eleanor's doing but she probably is actually cheating on him and I immediately felt horrible for him. "What do you want me to say? That I'm sorry for everything I've done? I've already done that, so what do you want me to say?" he stepped closer to me and his bright blue eyes were now a dark stormy color.

"I love you El, but you have to tell me the truth." I ran my hand through my hair and felt tears prick my eyes again. I couldn't fight them this time, everything was too piled up and nothing was okay anymore.

"I'm a shitty person okay?! I know I am. I lie and lie about every bitty thing and it kills me!" His face looked shocked and his eyes softened a little. "You open you're house and life to me and you accept me and you're all like "welcome to the family" for god sakes Louis you don't know how scary that is for me! I'm a liar and a bitch and an idiot and i'm probably going to rot in hell for what I've done. How can you possibly love me? You said you hated liars. Please hate me because I don't deserve any of this. I don't fucking deserve you, the boys, you're mum, or you're sisters!" I covered my face in my hands but I felt his eyes burning through them so I moved them away. He had a look in his eye I couldn't read, i'd never seen it before. Tears brimmed them and they looked like the ocean before a hurricane. I wiped my face and pointed to him. "I've lied to you so much Louis, It kills me and literally hurts to look at you because I'm terrified of what you'd do if you actually found out." He reached for me but I stepped away. "Goddammit Louis why can't you just be a prick and hate me? It would be so much easier for me if you were a dick all the time." He let out a little laugh but I was completely serious and he saw that.

"I-I-" he couldn't find anything to say and I don't blame him everything I said probably made no sense to him. My phone buzzed and I snatched it from my pocket.

From El:

Break up with him on you're way out would you?

Tkyx.

I threw the phone at the ground as hard as I could and it shattered. Why the hell did I just do that? Now what am I going to do? Idiot.

"El?" his voice was laced with worry and I laughed a very bitter laugh.

"She is not doing this shit to me. I'm not doing that for her she can do it herself." I spat as I looked at the shattered phone beneath me. I felt a hand touch my shoulder and I quickly backed away again. "I can't do this anymore Louis." He stepped away and I looked up to see his hurt face.

"W-What do you mean?" I shook my head and tried to speak as calmly as possible.

"I'll tell you when I get back." he was frozen in place and it scared me. He didn't move, breathe, anything... just looked at me with that look. Finally he shifted and I sighed. "See you in a few days Louis." my voice cracked at the end because it was another lie, I wouldn't actually see him again. I turned and started walking to the main road so I could get a taxi. I have my money so I don't have to actually go back in the house.. no clothes are that important. I couldn't say goodbye to the others as well I would completely break down.

"Hey!" I slowly turned around and he grabbed me by the waist and quickly pulled me into his chest as his lips crashed against mine sending sparks everywhere. My eyes widened in shock but when I realized what was happening I didn't fight back. I melted into the kiss and wrapped my arms around his neck. Butterfly's erupted in my stomach and I felt like I was walking on air. I let my hands run through his hair and heard a soft moan escape his lips. I let out a small laugh and we pulled away from each other. "I love you." he breathed out as he gently pressed his forehead against mine and lightly pecked my lips. I felt a tear roll down my cheek as I nodded.

"I love you too."