Sleepless Nights: A Star Wars Oneshot

Sleepless Nights

I drearily walk out of our bedroom into the living room that the three of us share. Blinded by the light that I didn't know was still on. The apartment is fairly quiet for being 1:30 in the morning.
Unexpectedly I see Luke sitting alone on the rocking chair. He looked tired too, his blonde hair messy, eyes red almost like he had been crying. He wore a tight fitted white t-shirt and baggy navy blue pajama pants.
I fall down onto the loveseat beside him. "Why're you still up?" I ask him. I'm not tired right now following the lovely nightmares I have gotten every night this week so far. "Just a nightmare again." He mumbles giving me a lame attempt of a smile. "Same" I nod to him although I just wish the trama of war didn't still stalk us. The room was dimly lit and slightly cooler than my room. None of the curtains were open but some of the city lights still managed to peek through. It's quiet in here except for the light hum of the city, people bustling about because to them the night is young.
"You didn't wake Han?" He asks bringing his legs up to the chair and criss-crossing them. "No he's sound asleep." I smile at the ground thinking of how peaceful he was. He has enough to deal with he doesn't have time for my recollections of what happened a year ago at 1:30 in the morning. Luke must have noticed when he smiled back. "Ya know Leia, he'll always be my best friend but the fact that he is in love with my baby sister makes me wanna hate him" his cheeky smile doesn't fail to make me smile. "Yes I know Luke." I look down at my left hand, it feels different but a good different. Something I had never felt before he had given me, it was more than just a ring it was happiness, love, a family, something that had been brutally taken away from me.
The room was quiet until my bedroom door opened, slowly and then all at once. My fiance walks out rubbing his eyes to adjust to the light. "Nightmare?" Luke blantly asks "How'd you guess?" He sarcastically responds and sat down on the loveseat next to me. "Welcome to the club" I say. "Why didn't you wake me?" He wraps his arm around my shoulders and pulls me close. "Its the fifth time this week and you need sleep, I'm fine, really." I don't look him directly, I can't.
"I've been up with her Han, we've all suffered through these." Luke tells him. "Yeah, we have," he responds. I rest my head on his shoulder and close my eyes, he moves his large, callused hand down to my elbow and up to my shoulder. Up and down, up and down.
"I wish I could've done something to prevent all of those horrible things, " I say my small voice barely audible, but they both catch it. "Sweetheart there was nothing you could've done," Han says trying to comfort me. "Yes there I was." I sit up to face him but let my eyes fall to the floor. "I could've prevented Alderaan from being destroyed I could've prevented you from being frozen-" He cuts me off "Leia that was MY fault. Don't blame yourself for that." He places his hand under my chin and lifted it so I am forced to look at him. His blue-green eyes were soft and I let myself relax again. "I still feel guilty to this day for having you witness all of those things, even if I could've changed anything, you still live with it, we still live with it." He glances over my shoulder at Luke. "Leia," my twin says causing me to turn and look at him. " I have nightmares about it still. We all lived through those horrific events but we survived" he smiles, his boyish smile makes me smile again combined with Han rubbing small circles into my back which also helped. "We'll be okay, you have more important things to worry about" he nods to my husband-to-be.
I almost hate myself for allowing myself to be so vulnerable in front of them. Those feelings go away when Luke gets up and forcefully lifts me out of my seat and into his strong arms. I release myself into his embrace. "Thanks Luke" I whisper into his ear. He squeezes me tighter as if to say "you're welcome."
He sets me down and Han stands next to me and instantly wraps his arm around my waist. "Let's get some sleep princess" I nod and walk off to our room with my arms wrapped around his torso. "G'night Luke" he says stopping at our door to turn to face his best friend. "Night you too. Don't be too loud." He smiles again and I swear Han and I roll our eyes at the same time and then walk into our dark bedroom in each others grip. I  don't want to let go.