Im a Nobody

Im A Nobody - Chapter 7

Mitchells p.o.v

The world came back slowly, and painfully. My body ached as I inhaled deep breaths.

I cracked my eyes open and at first the room was not recognizable or familiar at all. Groaning, I stirred and tried to put my hand over my eyes, it was to bring.

I went to lift up my hand, but I could not, it felt as if there were bricks weighing me down. l lifted my head a bit, making a sharp wave of pain rush down my back. Wincing in pain, I turned my head to the side just enough to see familiar blond hair. Ben? He laid his head on his arms with his eyes shut, with my hand in his. I could feel a light blush coming up to my cheeks at the position. It was very intimate.

"Ben." I said, coming out lighter and quiter than I expected. "Ben?" I croaked again. He still did not move, but he stirred and murmured something incoherent. "Ben." I repeated, but louder this time, making my voice crack from the lack of use.

Ben's head shot up, his eyes wide as if he had just dropped a pile of plates. "You... I... You... Im... Uh..." He stuttered, still looking at me as if I was just a mere ghost before looking away.  I smiled faintly at him, then looked at my hand, squeezing his weakly. "Oh, shoot, Im.. Uh.. Sorry." Releasing my hand right away, a light tint came onto his cheeks.

I gave him another weak smile. "So, where is everybody?" I asked quietly, barely above a whisper.

"They are working." He said in aw.

"How long, have I been asleep?" I murmered, shifting to stand.

"No, dont get up." He said hurridly and pushed me back down. "They said you aren't allowed to get up." He paused for a while, "You kept coming in a going." I starred at him and frowned as an emotion of sadness, maybe even sorrow passed through his eyes.

"Im sorry." I whispered as I laid back down.

"No, wait, Im sorry!" He apologized. "If you want, you can get up... But Im just saying, because it might hurt and you know... I dont really like to see you in pai--" He smacked his hand over his mouth. "Sorry. I am talking to much, I am going to... Uh... Go. Bye" He said before walking to the door. 

He seemed very fidgety. Was it wrong to say he did look sort of cute. But as it kicked in that he was about to leave me here alone, my eyes snapped out.

"Wait! Ben!" I out after him.

He turned around, "Yes?" He was tapping his hands on his pants. I looked him up and down, he was like a different Ben. Well, not his physical self but personality wise.

"I..." I paused, I do not know why but I wanted him to stay with me... Or I just did not want to be alone. "Can you stay with me." I blurted out, then blushed as I noticed what I said.

He smiled a little, then nodded hesitantly, walking back to me, checking back toward the stairs then finally sitting were he was before.

"So..." I started. "How long was I unconscious exactly?" I asked, trying to make conversation, even though I should probably resting my voice.

You could visibly see that he was uncomfertable but it did not stop him from answering the quetsion "Actually..." He scratched his chin "It was pretty long and boring." he tried to laugh, but failed misserably. "Almost two weeks." He then murmured.

"W..Wh...Wh...What?" I was unconscious for almost two weeks?

"And you kept coming and going." My eyes snapped back to his face, that was when I noticed tears welling in his eyes. Which was odd because I never seen him cry, "And gosh, you were such an annoying little brat, even when you are like, almost dead." Ben chuckled trying to lighten the mood. "But then... Nobody would let you just die, nobody wanted to bury you." He paused fiddling with his shirt. "Not even me, like god, your weak what were you thinking? It is the dumb part of your brain kicked in and was like 'Oh yes, I am going to take Tammy's punishment 'cause I wont get hurt', when everybody knows that Lord Micheal enjoys disciplining you." He ended in an almost growl, his eyes were filled with hatred and it made me feel better. So he cared for me?

"I'm sorry." I sniffled. "I did not mean to worry any of you guys, I thought it would be easier for me to be dead, I have nobody here." My voice cracked, I adverted my eyes quickly as I saw Ben's head snap up.

"God, Mitchell just shut up! Stop talking like that!" Ben finally snapped, making me jump, "Why do you always do that?" He said, getting angrier, "You put yourself down all the damned time! Have you ever thought that people care about you!" He asked getting loud his face going red.

"No, no I dont! Because nobody does!" I half yelled back, ignoring the pain flaring through out my chest, back, head, and face.

Ben stood and flung the chair he was sitting in back, making it hit the ground loudly. "Do not you dare play that card!" He yelled, pointing at me. Tears nearly spilling out of his eyes.

"Its true!" I yelled, getting shaky, you would think I would just pass out, but not now. Now, I want to yell at Ben, I want to jump on him and bang his head to the ground, "If somebody does care then tell me some names ! List some!" I yelled getting frustrated.

He should not make claims he does not know anything of. "I do Mitchell, I do!" He placed his hands on his chest, I froze though. "I do!" Ben repeated. "Me, Ben, I care!" He kept repeating.

I shook my head, "Stop, stop." Just stop. I let the tear fall from my eyes and I cried. "Pleas.e" I whimpered. It could not be true, he is not supposed to care. He used to terroize me, he hurt me! "No, no you do not. You always used to hurt me, you... you... you... burned me!" I cried out, holding my head in my hands.

"And Im sorry for that Mitchell, I am so sorry." A single tear rolled down his face, and he quickly wiped it away.

"No, no, no." I shook my head and tugged on some of my hair.

"Mitchell, please, listen to me," Ben grabbed my arms and pulled them away from my face, "I care." He whispered, his face close to mine "I do." Ben breathed, his warm breath fanning my face, his eyes flicking between both of mine.

Ben then pulled my arms around him and put his arms around my neck, hugging me tightly but so gently at the same time.

"God, I hate you." I murmured to him, hugging him back.

"I did not mean it, I swear. I never meant to hurt you." He kissed the side of my head, "Im sorry." He kissed my cheek, "So sorry." Ben mumbled then pulled me away from him, kissing my lips. "Im sorry" He hugged me again, I smiled over his shoulder while my eyes are closed, replaying  the kiss in my mind. 

I wish he kissed me again, I said to myself.

"Uhhrghhm" Someone cleared there voice, I opened my eyes looking over Ben's shoulder, my eyes starred right into his. Ben slowly moved away from me to turn around, "Hey, Mitch'" He greeted quietly using my nickname.

_______________________________________________________________________________

Edited: October, 18/2013